I feel torn. I feel like my notice at work was a good decision, but when my boss offered me a couple of shifts a week at a position I can at least stomach most of the time, it sounded like a good idea. I say I'm torn because in situations like this I know my guts or my instinct is usually right, but they are not on the same page at the moment.
My gut is telling me making a clean cut is the best option. I'm unhappy there, even in positions I don't mind. That mentality spills over into the rest of my life, and I find it impossible to enjoy being around people when not at work, because most of the time I spend around people is at work, which has so many triggers for negativity. I need to completely get away from it and focus on seeing the good in life again, and not dwelling on the things that bring me down.
My instincts, on the other hand, are bullet-pointing all the advantages of keeping a couple shifts. Going from full-time to no time is going to deplete your savings it tells me, a couple shifts would help. You'd be helping your co-workers make it through until they can find a viable replacement, it tells me. It's easier to find a job while employed. It's the safer choice.
And then my gut butts in again and tells me my instincts are really just a fear to end something comfortable and that I'm used to, even if it brings me unhappiness. My instincts rebut by saying the reality would not be that I would quit and a huge burden of negativity energy would be lifted off my shoulders, but rather a new weight of stress coming from a new need for money, and one that is now on a time limit.
I really don't know what I am going to do. On the drive home from work, I was on the side of my instincts. After writing this, my gut seems more appealing. My gut is almost always right, for better or worse. I think the real question is whether or not my mental well-being or financial well-being is more important. Obviously my mental and emotional health is more important, but without money I wouldn't be able to maintain those either. I have 4 to 5 months of savings, is that enough time to stabilize all those aspects of myself?
I wish I could see the future and know what choice is really best.