:sad: I don't know what'd I do. The only thing I can possibly think of doing myself would be to make me staying at home the worst scenario and make leaving look good by comparison. I don't know how I would do anything like it though, I'm not into making people suffer. I hate seeing good people in bad situations like you seem to be in.
But, aye, that's been my life for the past 15 years. :sad: Compromise and sacrificing my own time n' happiness for others. Without so much as a thank you or returning the favour. But I'm lying, apparently, when I speak of how difficult it's been for me having to fend for myself and bare sole responsibility of care for the mother who raised me, cuz she's too lazy to keep the house tidy when I around. Despite me telling her time n' again that I'm not there to pick up after her.
She's think I've gave up caring, but that's not true. I just can be bothered making the effort to motivate her anymore, when she'd rather lie on the living room couch and complain - ironically - about why she never get things done. :kickingmyself:
Don't get me wrong, leaving would be f*ckin' brilliant! For the peace n' quiet, if nuthin' else. Ah just don't want to be the yin who gets blamed if my mother follows through on her threat to kill herself, y'know? And she didnae take to kindly to mocking her for it, by saying I'd talk her into it if she felt so strongly about it - make it an assisted suicide.
I guess taking a place of my own will have to be done without my mother's knowledge, then? As I know I can't carrying with the way things have been.