How are you feeling?

Feeling as though its time to give it a go. Apply a few rules consistently....for ever.

I miss being alive. The afterlife is such a drag. :sad:

No sure how much more of this shite ah cun pit up with, to be honest. :sad:

Miserable. Mind is conflicted with anxiety. Hate being at work and engaging in the banter. Even if I wanted to walk away and go for another job, too fearful of being stuck unemployed so maybe, hopefully, there's a change for the better soon!

I'm just ****ing bored and lonely.

super anxious and super depressed at how much of a loser i am. I'm 30 years old and have accomplished nothing. I feel as if I've accumulated the life knowledge of a 12 year old because of my issues. Just a big disappointment nothing more and nothing less. Longing for the day where this cycle of misery comes to an end. Why must these things exist? Why can't we just lead normal lives? I hate this.....I....I...JUST HATE THIS SO MUCH. The worse part is the people you end up letting down that sinks you even deeper into your issues. And I know tomorrow morning when I wake up, If I am lucky I won't, it will be there to greet me again. Like an old friend that refuses to forget about you and keeps checking up on you. I just don't know how much longer I can do this for. Sorry, but I just had to write it out 🙁

My stomach feels queasy, and I don't wanna take a Klonopin for it. :s

Forgettable.

Bored. Very very bored.

Frustrated and uncomfortable.

defiance said: ↑

super anxious and super depressed at how much of a loser i am. I'm 30 years old and have accomplished nothing. I feel as if I've accumulated the life knowledge of a 12 year old because of my issues. (

I can sympathise with you here. I'm nearing 30 this year and I feel like I have no knowledge on the day to day issues that affect other people - bills, house issues and don't get me started on cars because I would have no clue. It's meant because of me being unable to ask people for fear of looking and sounding clueless, I try obtain information from the internet, forums etc but still no better. Fear how my wife respond when she realises my knowledge base is empty compared to my peers and family members!

Awake, surprisingly.

defiance said: ↑

super anxious and super depressed at how much of a loser i am. I'm 30 years old and have accomplished nothing. I feel as if I've accumulated the life knowledge of a 12 year old because of my issues. Just a big disappointment nothing more and nothing less. Longing for the day where this cycle of misery comes to an end. Why must these things exist? Why can't we just lead normal lives? I hate this.....I....I...JUST HATE THIS SO MUCH. The worse part is the people you end up letting down that sinks you even deeper into your issues. And I know tomorrow morning when I wake up, If I am lucky I won't, it will be there to greet me again. Like an old friend that refuses to forget about you and keeps checking up on you. I just don't know how much longer I can do this for. Sorry, but I just had to write it out 🙁

SilentAndShy said: ↑

I can sympathise with you here. I'm nearing 30 this year and I feel like I have no knowledge on the day to day issues that affect other people - bills, house issues and don't get me started on cars because I would have no clue. It's meant because of me being unable to ask people for fear of looking and sounding clueless, I try obtain information from the internet, forums etc but still no better. Fear how my wife respond when she realises my knowledge base is empty compared to my peers and family members!

I'm not far off the big three-oh, myself. And feel exactly tha same way ye both. Ah cun especially relate tae yer whole feelin' like yer knowledge base is empty, SilentAndShy. Ah feel as though, despite aw the books ah read or the fact ah self-taught myself the guitat from age 16 til now, ah know sweet f*** all compared to people ma age or ma family. Ironically, I got told by my cousin I'm one of only 2 smart peple in our whole family, in her opinion.
Which is slightly disturbing considering the areas of life where ah lack knowledge - cars being one, economics being another.

Graeme1988 said: ↑

I'm not far off the big three-oh, myself. And feel exactly tha same way ye both. Ah cun especially relate tae yer whole feelin' like yer knowledge base is empty, SilentAndShy. Ah feel as though, despite aw the books ah read or the fact ah self-taught myself the guitat from age 16 til now, ah know sweet f*** all compared to people ma age or ma family. Ironically, I got given told by my cousin I'm one of only 2 smart peple in our whole family, in her opinion.
Which is slightly disturbing considering the areas of life where ah lack knowledge - cars being one, economics being another.

I'm sorry that you are going through this mental hell. It truly amazes me sometimes what the human mind can do to oneself. I mean just about anything and everything gives me bad anxiety that then leads to me being super depressed. I don't get it. Is it really too much to ask for to be, for lack of a better term, normal? What am i supposed to think of myself when i can't work, or drive, or be useful in any productive way? I'm nothing more than a burden on my loved ones. It does make me feel a bit better that some people here can relate to what I am going through. But to be honest i'd be a lot happier if you couldn't because then that would mean you were better off. Good luck to you friend.

I always thought Id be married with a mortgage and kids by 26 and nope, nothing magically changed at 26. And 30 was not some landmark age for me either .....Im aware of how little I know about anything, I had it all figured out when I was 20 especially the things I didn't know anything about. But now I question everything I think I know about anything :idontknow: and it turns out that I don't know.

kilojoule said: ↑

I always thought Id be married with a mortgage and kids by 26 and nope, nothing magically changed at 26. And 30 was not some landmark age for me either .....Im aware of how little I know about anything, I had it all figured out when I was 20 especially the things I didn't know anything about. But now I question everything I think I know about anything :idontknow: and it turns out that I don't know.

There are known knowns. These are things we know that we know. There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things that we know we don't know. But there are also unknown unknowns. There are things we don't know we don't know.

Donald Rumsfeld

Attention-starved. Felt sickly earlier, but it went away.

Like there is nothing left for me in this world

S_Spartan said: ↑

There are known knowns. These are things we know that we know. There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things that we know we don't know. But there are also unknown unknowns. There are things we don't know we don't know.

Donald Rumsfeld

🤭 that is fantastic :thumbup: