How are you feeling?

Crazy for feeling as though I need an apology from someone who is so gone.

I'm rotting away. Why must it take so long?

I think I'm already hungover from chugging a bottle of hard cider (head hurts), but overall, I'm glad I dragged my a** out to this club.

This is for ~6hrs ago (site has been down).

Booze/ledzepp, so mood not good, but will be after the booze gets rid of my crap reality..

Yep, 6hrs later, my mood is better (=comfortably numb). Play some ledzepp, now onto smashing pumpkins; "catching up" on a couple decades of SP music all in one go 😉

Stressed as f**k... Family are assumin' that I'm huvin 2nd thoughts about this surgery, which y'know... Thanks for the lack of faith, ya twat-monkeys. :kickingmyself: And this close to the date of the op? Away an shag yersel'.

And they gan oan aboot it like they're the yin gettin' it done. :thumbdown: Selfish c***s! But they're only tryin' to help... Aye, sure ye are.

It really gets on ma tits that the yin person who should huv final say in the matter is totally disregarded cuz whit tha f**k do ah know, eh?

Also, on the verge of flingin' ma laptop oot tha window.

theslowesthand said: ↑

This is for ~6hrs ago (site has been down).

Booze/ledzepp, so mood not good, but will be after the booze gets rid of my crap reality..

Yep, 6hrs later, my mood is better (=comfortably numb). Play some ledzepp, now onto smashing pumpkins; "catching up" on a couple decades of SP music all in one go 😉

:thumbup: Nice choice of music, there. Though, I'm not a huge of the Smashing Pumpkins, after Melancholy and Infinite Sadness they're a bit shite.

Quite miserable.

Blah.............Everything seems so boring and repetitive

I've been very depressed all week-end, trying to do stuff but ending up sitting on the floor staring at nothing. I finally gathered enough will to take some vitamin D, go for a long walk outside, do some yoga and cook some fresh food and switched the melancholic music to reggae.

Also decided to work from home today, because the idea of going back to the negative atmosphere of my work place makes me want to quit. I'm not sure if the depression is due to going back to work or seasonal depression, probably both, but anyway I feel better today.

Hurting and unhappy. I don't like being alive.



Maybe I'm not hurting enough. :thinking:

GraybeardGhost said: ↑

Hurting and unhappy. I don't like being alive.



Maybe I'm not hurting enough. :thinking:

That's sad to hear Graybeard. I hope these feelings pass soon.

Good actually. But Just how 'good', well... I'm not sure this is the place to discuss that.. lol

I was feeling pretty down earlier this evening, hurting physically and mentally, worn down to the quick by the trials life's been throwing my way of late. Loneliness, hopelessness, pain, fatigue, worries on top of worries . . . you know the score, you know how the game is played.

Then I got to talking with a couple of cats in the chatbox, and I forgot about a lot of what I was feeling before, like somehow it all drained away and things seemed better, if not quite all right. It felt so good.

Inevitably, though, the tide turned, churned by an innocent, sweet, and terrible hand, and the misery surged once again over the rocky shores of my soul. Sadness, wretchedness—dark, deep, and so very cold—that's where I am now, and that's how I feel.

The mood god giveth and the mood god taketh away. He's kind of a **** like that.

^ everything written above ^ 🙃

2am... I am never going to get back to sleep now. Ya swines! :sad:

It took a nurse an hour to finally close my room down on the hospital ward I am on. :kickingmyself: Ridiculous ! Why bother giving me my own room, if yer just going leave the door open :oh: Eejits!

Like a late bloomer, mentally. It feels like I'm just now getting the urge to do all this sh*t people my age (mid-20's) already did a few years ago in their late teens/early 20's.

I spent too much time trying to be part of those upper class "successful" people, trying to be a "good" kid, and hampered down with anxiety around people.

Now my peers are all looking at establishing themselves in corporate careers and starting families, and all I wanna do is write novels while working the odd job here and there to pay bills, be a freak, and find my better half to NOT have kids with (and not in the form of an older man - older men intimidate me).

I can't believe what I just heard, it can't be true? I'm crying :crying:

If it happens one day, great.

If not, maybe next lifetime I'll have better luck.

kihira said: ↑

I can't believe what I just heard, it can't be true? I'm crying :crying:

I guess you are referring to David Bowie, Kihira? Awful news.

Kiwong said: ↑

I guess you are referring to David Bowie, Kihira? Awful news.

Yes, didn't see it coming, new album and all. There's some really bad ju-ju around lately