How are you feeling?

I get annoyed getting too much cold air from the fan haha!

I feel failure-prone and flopsome. No energy, no motivation. Utterly lethargic.

My lack of concern concerns me, but I don't know how to address it.

I may need a new battery.

That, or a dominatrix with a cattle prod.

My stomach... we'll just leave it at that.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

My stomach... we'll just leave it at that.

Me too. Pizza Hut got me again.

I don't understand why people always leave, even when they promise they won't. I feel betrayed and confused. Deep down I know it means they weren't really my friend and didn't care for me anyway but why couldn't they just tell me what happened? Now they're gone and I don't even know what I did.

Embarrassed.

The worst thing is realizing you smell a lot seconds before you have to go to work. The cold months are always annoying that way, because you're sweating less and thus it becomes more difficult to deduce when you have to take a shower.

I'd do it consistently like in spring and summer, but with the heat being on at all times, that would be an extra strain on expenses.

Right now just too much tired going to sleep... 😛

Was depressed because last night I went overboard and made a huge amount of gingerbread for work delicately decorated and all , got dressed in my favourite new t shirt in the morning and felt great- then got depressed as I realised the guy I have a crush on at work would not be in today- which made me feel depressed.

But then I got really angry because the huge amount of gingerbread I made (to last for at least a few days at work so that everyone could have some!) was eaten by just two women the whole day with only 4 left--------------- and the worst thing is that they never even said anything about it!! No thankyou's, no compliments - nothing at all - they just ate basically the whole lot > (

I felt that was very rude and my respect to those two women are not that great. Because, if that was me I would definately say something!!

Disappointed!

Lost. Disillusioned. Fed-up... And alone, always alone.

No longer yearning for any deep, meaningful, genuine connections with people. Since most people in ma life are c**ts. Also, why bother anyway - they just end up gettin' bored of me and leaving. Cuz everybuddy leaves, that's just how it is.

But ah've accepted that's how things are, like how am supposed tolerate being emasulated and infantilized by ma family.

Ah don't think this life is / or was for me, really. It's been shitty, neverending struggle from the beginning. :sad:

Rancid—but I'm too tired, flipped out, and apathetic to do anything about it. They'll wash me when I'm dead.

GraybeardGhost said: ↑

Rancid—but I'm too tired, flipped out, and apathetic to do anything about it. They'll wash me when I'm dead.

Wash or you'll smell minging aw day... :bigsmile:

Tired, confused. My therapist dumped me a while back (literally and as brutally as it sounds) I thought I was fine then knew I wasn't. Realised it's Xmas which means I've been consistently depressed for 1 year and am regretting wishing I'd stop getting mood swings because they were actually better than this constant low and almost constant anxiety. I realised I'm holding back with my new therapist and decided to get it all out today but couldn't make my appointment as my kid is ill. Now sitting with thoughts racing not sure what the truth is anyway as I can't figure my own head out and my thoughts are so jumbled. I ended up reading about psychiatric problems hoping to find something that makes sense and then writing jumbled stuff about how I'm feeling whilst trying to avoid everyone.
Pretty sure I need to see my psychiatrist and be open with him too but I don't want more pills and I don't particularly like him!

grapevine said: ↑

Was depressed because last night I went overboard and made a huge amount of gingerbread for work delicately decorated and all , got dressed in my favourite new t shirt in the morning and felt great- then got depressed as I realised the guy I have a crush on at work would not be in today- which made me feel depressed.

But then I got really angry because the huge amount of gingerbread I made (to last for at least a few days at work so that everyone could have some!) was eaten by just two women the whole day with only 4 left--------------- and the worst thing is that they never even said anything about it!! No thankyou's, no compliments - nothing at all - they just ate basically the whole lot > (

I felt that was very rude and my respect to those two women are not that great. Because, if that was me I would definately say something!!

Disappointed!

That's rough. My mother works with a crowd like that, I couldn't cope with it.

I'm feeling very homesick.

disturbing thoughts

The brain feels exhausted of the thoughts.

I thought I thought thoughts, but then I thought not.
Now I think thinks, but my think thinking stinks.



Sorry. :omg:

The word fratricide has such a nice ring to it.

Buckin' terrible... Wish this gut ache would eff off. Cannae seem to eat much withoot huvin to legit to toilet immeditately after. :thumbdown:

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Buckin' terrible... Wish this gut ache would eff off. Cannae seem to eat much withoot huvin to legit to toilet immeditately after. [emoji107]

Hope you feel better soon, man. Stomach issues are no fun.