How are you feeling?

There is a time that I only feel good and not worrying about anything.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

Leftovers are gonna be the death of me. As soon as they're gone, I'm getting back in shape, I think I'm finally sick of being so heavy.

That's the spirit.

PerseverareJasmine said: ↑

I haven't been able to fall asleep. I keep thinking about how nice it'd be to drop down into some kind of alternate life.

What kind of alternate life?

I don't know how this is going to work.

At the moment I feel kind of sad and a bit depressed. I wish things were different in my life, I wish I could have a better attitude towards life and not to break down so easily, but it's so difficult sometimes... dealing with social phobia, scruples, anxiety, with not being able to detach myself from a person, with a horrible feeling of emptiness inside and a feeling of abandonment and helplesness.

I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, and I try to stick to my faith against all the odds, but you know, I'm weak and it's hard for me to cope with all these feelings... just wishing to unburden myself with you, thanks for reading

I've been dreading today, got a feeling it's not going to go well. Ah hate hospital appointments :thumbdown:

Graeme1988 said: ↑

I've been dreading today, got a feeling it's not going to go well. Ah hate hospital appointments :thumbdown:

Hope it all goes better than expected :thumbup:

kihira said: ↑

Hope it all goes better than expected :thumbup:

Everything went okay, despite it be obvious that I was really anxious. Thankfully ah didnae pass oot when ah wus huvin' ma blood taken. First time I've ever done and ah don't like needles.

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Ah just wish ah could overcome this fear of other people that's been with me from a young age. :sad:

I've had a headache all day. I don't know how migraine sufferers cope, God bless 'em.

S_Spartan said: ↑

What kind of alternate life?

I'm not sure how to explain it without feeling self-conscious of sounding silly, but pretty much I'd like to have some kind of way of erasing my attachments and memories for whatever amount of time I wanted so I could go into some kind of "forgotten and invisible" mode. Sort of like taking a vacation from life for as long as I want while having absolutely no memories of my issues and no one being aware of my absence.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

I've had a headache all day. I don't know how migraine sufferers cope, God bless 'em.

I'm one of those migraine sufferers. It's pretty much hell, but I don't have migraines as often as I used to, thankgod.
I hope your headache goes away.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

I've had a headache all day. I don't know how migraine sufferers cope, God bless 'em.

With great difficulty.

An infected sore throat as usual.
And also I'm about to get my period and the pain is starting now.

I wrote my half brother today, to wish him a happy birthday. Of course he hasn't responded. Why would he, we don't even know each other anymore.
I tried calling an old friend that got divorced recently, she hasn't called me back. Why would she, we barely have a friendship anymore.
And on and on it goes with this doom and despair in my ridiculous existence.

Relived, if no slightly bewildered by ma hospital appointment, yesterday. Tryin' tae reassure yersel in a situation you've never experience isnae half difficult. Still don't know how ah staye clam huvin ma blood pressure taken. Nevermind huvin ma blood taken. And...

Huv any of youse every been asked a question, almost philisophical in its phrasing, that ye didnae huv an instant answer for it? :idontknow:

So much to do, so little bebotherdness to do it with

Like a pool of wax at the foot of a burned out candle, frozen in the shape of its distress.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

I've had a headache all day. I don't know how migraine sufferers cope, God bless 'em.

Drugs. :thumbup: I love my little migraine painkillers.


Sorry you're not feeling good, though. That sucks. :/

LoyalXenite said: ↑

Well you can have first choice. These are your options:

Can we just bring top hats back already? I mean, it has to circle back at some point, right?

I am sick of being walked over and having my feelings disregarded. So mad that I just want to smash up everything in my path

I feel annoyed