Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry to hear ye can relate and feel the same way. :sad: How do you cope with that feeling? Just asking cuz ah could do with some advice.
How are you feeling?
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Sorry to hear ye can relate and feel the same way. :sad: How do you cope with that feeling? Just asking cuz ah could do with some advice.
S_Spartan
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Just trying to learn not to give a f*** about anything(as much as I can) because the way I see it, if the world could care less about me, to the point that it actually demonstrates that it does not want me, then why should I give a f*** about it?
I must admit that this has been a real challenge because I was raised by some very uptight people. I mean some real self righteous, stick up the butt kind of people.
This doesn't mean going on a crime spree or anything like that but people like us have to give ourselves a break because the world sure as hell aint gonna give you one.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
The whole not giving a f**k kinda comes naturally to me, but I was raised by a similar sorta people as well. Not so much, self righteous, stick up the old jaxie types. More yer strict, backwards, conservative, radical feminist Christians.
Naw, naw, of course... Ah wouldnae be so daft as to go on a crime spree. :bigsmile: But ah get what ye mean, nonetheless.
Marshmallow
Active member
Strangely alone. More so than in a while, despite talking to people.
deleteduser50890
Banned
Regretful.
MollyBeGood
Well-known member
Oddly optimistic...I am sure it will pass ��
S_Spartan
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That would make a great t-shirt!
Requiescat
Well-known member
Very frustrated. It seems impossible to find any kind of common ground with anyone. To get any kind of response at all these days seems wishful thinking. SPW also not quite what I hoped it would be.
AlienGeranium
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What were you hoping for?
Kiwong
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I was at a nature photo exhibition. And I walked around the room looking at the photos. There were other people looking too. One nice looking lady was walking around the in the opposite direction. When we reached the same photos I walked around her head down.
"The photo of Pelicans is good," she said.
Quiet internal panic, I looked around. Is she talking to me or someone else? Is someone actually talking to me, an attractive intelligent lady? No way, no one talks to me, I'm weird, I have anxiety, says this inner voice. And if anyone did talk to me they'd soon be glad they didn't, they'd find out how strange I am.
Eventually I replied. "Yes, mmmm, sorry." and walked on.
And then I left the exhibition, feeling an internal turmoil, a sadness a kind of empty longing. Imagining how great it would be just to have a conversation with someone like that. To talk to someone for hours about shared passions.
But I can't even imagine anyone wanting to talk to me. I might even be attracted, and of course that is dangerous, because my mind tells me that would never be reciprocated.
"The photo of Pelicans is good," she said.
Quiet internal panic, I looked around. Is she talking to me or someone else? Is someone actually talking to me, an attractive intelligent lady? No way, no one talks to me, I'm weird, I have anxiety, says this inner voice. And if anyone did talk to me they'd soon be glad they didn't, they'd find out how strange I am.
Eventually I replied. "Yes, mmmm, sorry." and walked on.
And then I left the exhibition, feeling an internal turmoil, a sadness a kind of empty longing. Imagining how great it would be just to have a conversation with someone like that. To talk to someone for hours about shared passions.
But I can't even imagine anyone wanting to talk to me. I might even be attracted, and of course that is dangerous, because my mind tells me that would never be reciprocated.
S_Spartan
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If you are very wealthy and reach an existential crisis in your life you can take a year and hike through Europe to "find yourself", or move to really expensive tropical place, or start a new corporation or take over an existing one, if you are a man you might buy a really expensive sportscar, if you are a woman you might like a collection of designer bags to help ease the pain.
If you are poor or average and reach and existential crisis you can rearrange your crappy furniture, go for a walk, cut out carbs and gluten, take up Yoga, meditate, or find religion.
If you are poor or average and reach and existential crisis you can rearrange your crappy furniture, go for a walk, cut out carbs and gluten, take up Yoga, meditate, or find religion.
MollyBeGood
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I'd rather be poor if that is the female "option"
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Yes people do buy things thinking it will help them feel better. But they almost always end up realizing that material possessions don't buy happiness.
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
A simple conversation is probably what this lady was after. Although she may in fact be looking for a man who can actually talk about photography and likes it as much as she does. Maybe looks don't count as the most important thing for her in a respectful friendship?
Perhaps she is tired of finding all the 'good looking guys' who just want to nail her..
Kiwong
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And a simple conversation is what I am after, and which I desperately miss. I would love that. With anyone. I'd love to talk to someone, anyone without my anxiety getting in the way. A conversation which went well, in which when it ends both people feel good.
I guess I dream of finding kindred spirits who lover the same sort of things as me. I didn't have the courage, even to brave a simple conversation. I couldn't believe that anyone would want to talk to me.
SoScared
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The number of posts is vastly reduced compared to a couple of years ago. If the newbies keep posting it will soon pick up again.
DanielLewis
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Very, very tired. I stayed up all night studying and now I have two job interviews today.