Not amazing.
This girl (who is one of the few people hang around with at college) and i were talking and joking around in class. It was all good and, when class ended, i got everything ready and went to leave with her. When i got to the door, though, i noticed she had stopped at the table and was looking through her bag. This is where one of my flaws comes out in all its glory, my irrationality/overanalysing of things. For a split second, i thought she might genuinely be looking for something (like any normal person would think), but then i started thinking 'oh, she's not really looking for anything, she just doesn't want to walk with me because i must've said something wrong, i'm too boring, etc, etc'. Anyway, I didn't want to wait for her in case she was trying to not hang around me and i also didn't want to seem like a stalker/idiot for not getting the hint. On the other hand, i didn't want to seem like a jerk and just walk out without even saying goodbye. As well as this, i started feeling anxious about standing by the door because tonnes of the class were about to walk out and i was sort of in the way. In the end, i decide to just walk away and instantly regret it.
In an attempt to try and not seem like a jerk, i decide to take a long way to the exit so that i might run into her and casually say bye and make up for the jerkiness. At the point where the two ways to the exit meet, though, i'm slightly behind her and try to catch her up by walking a bit quicker. She sees me and, as i realise how stalkerer/weird what i had done must seem, i try and act like i didn't see her. i'm pretty sure she knew i was trying to make it look like i hadn't seen her, though (thereby coming off as a jerk for a second time). All this happened in the space of a few minutes. I was actually having quite a good day up to that point, but now i can't help feeling like i completely ruined any friendship i had with her. I ditched her in lesson and then, in an attempt to make up for the ditching, i must've come across as a complete stalker and a jerk (again!).
Argh, why can't my brain deal with situations like this in a normal, not weird way?
Sorry for the wall of text, by the way.... just needed somewhere to let off some steam lol
