Srijita52
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I'm sorry.Feel so ugly~ ::
I'm sorry you're feeling bad. I agree with Mikey, we all have our own problems, it doesn't help to know that our issues are better or worse than anyone else's.
How are you feeling?
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Just read my father's obituary in my local newspaper... and I can't help crying because I got the overall impression that he cared more about my step-siblings than he did me, the obituary pretty much confirmed this feeling. But then he didn't much of an effort with me, anyway. ::
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lyricalliaisons
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I just found out that my SSI application was finally APPROVED, after three tries and almost two years. So I'm feeling really good. I never even needed a lawyer like EVERYONE said I would!!
Srijita52
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That's great!I just found out that my SSI application was finally APPROVED, after three tries and almost two years. So I'm feeling really good. I never even needed a lawyer like EVERYONE said I would!!
Srijita52
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I'm so sorry Graeme.Just read my father's obituary in my local newspaper... and I can't help crying because I got the overall impression that he cared more about my step-siblings than he did me, the obituary pretty much confirmed this feeling. But then he didn't much of an effort with me, anyway. :
lyricalliaisons
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bcsr
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Not too bad. Put in my 2 week resignation today at work, because I got my formal job offer from the Sheriff's Department yesterday. It will be 6 months before I'll be eligible for TCLEOSE sponsorship with them, but that's no problem at all. One step closer to being a peace officer.
That was definitely a grueling application process, it took almost a full month of interviews and testing.
Yea, I eat strawberries all the time. I love them dearly. Oddly enough, the last time that happened, it was also after eating strawberries. So I think I just have to give them up, as painful as it will be.
That was definitely a grueling application process, it took almost a full month of interviews and testing.
^ Oh wow, bcsr that's awful. :
Sorry you had to go through that, but I know the feeling. I get an anaphylactic reaction if I consume bananas or banana flavored anything. My chest and the back of my throat tightens, I can hardly breathe, then I start panicking and I get light headed and start to shake, ugh it's awful and scary. My doctor told me it's only a matter of time before I get the same reaction to latex because apparently they're connected (I don't know how?). Wonderful.
Yea, I eat strawberries all the time. I love them dearly. Oddly enough, the last time that happened, it was also after eating strawberries. So I think I just have to give them up, as painful as it will be.
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Srijita52
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I'm glad. Good luck.Not too bad. Put in my 2 week resignation today at work, because I got my formal job offer from the Sheriff's Department yesterday. It will be 6 months before I'll be eligible for TCLEOSE sponsorship with them, but that's no problem at all. One step closer to being a peace officer.
That was definitely a grueling application process, it took almost a full month of interviews and testing.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ugly, empty. Feeling pretty low, struggling with a moderate depression. I feel like I have no-one to confide in about my problems, other than on here. Besides that, I decided to reschedule my meeting with Capability Scotland for the beginning of June. Meh! That's about it for now, really.
Srijita52
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I know the feeling of having no one to confide in. Stay strong.
Gaucho
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very little hope is left, a little light is still there at the end, i cant see it, but i feel its there. will i ever arrive to that light? maybe yes, maybe not, big probability that I'm NOT.
today is one of these days, were i just want to eliminate everything what is related with my human being, my past,the present, and the future
just saving money for 1 one way ticket to the other part of the world, and never looking back.
what is the sense on living, of being a human being, find happiness? make this world a little better? maybe its just being egoistic and trying to make as much money as possible and be a materialist, maybe its just sitting on the park bench for years, and have that feeling of inner light,peace,freedom, yes i want to achieve that last thing, but at the same time i know i will never do.
maybe ill get a good job someday,maybe ill love someone for a few years, i don't know, but happy? i think i cannot answer that question
today is one of these days, were i just want to eliminate everything what is related with my human being, my past,the present, and the future
just saving money for 1 one way ticket to the other part of the world, and never looking back.
what is the sense on living, of being a human being, find happiness? make this world a little better? maybe its just being egoistic and trying to make as much money as possible and be a materialist, maybe its just sitting on the park bench for years, and have that feeling of inner light,peace,freedom, yes i want to achieve that last thing, but at the same time i know i will never do.
maybe ill get a good job someday,maybe ill love someone for a few years, i don't know, but happy? i think i cannot answer that question
Rembrandt Broam
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Feel so ugly~ :
I'm sure that how you feel doesn't accurately reflect the reality of the situation. A lot of people here have expressed similar sentiments, but you only have to look at the post your picture threads to see that it isn't true.
Welcome to SPW!
AsTimeBurns
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Neck/head ache as usual.
MikeyC
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You even named her and everything. That's rough.
Ouch, that's not good. Sorry, man.Just read my father's obituary in my local newspaper... and I can't help crying because I got the overall impression that he cared more about my step-siblings than he did me, the obituary pretty much confirmed this feeling. But then he didn't much of an effort with me, anyway. :
Excellent news. You have a stronger skin than I do because I couldn't do that at all. I hope it all comes to fruition.Not too bad. Put in my 2 week resignation today at work, because I got my formal job offer from the Sheriff's Department yesterday. It will be 6 months before I'll be eligible for TCLEOSE sponsorship with them, but that's no problem at all. One step closer to being a peace officer.
Rest up, my friend.
Srijita52
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That sucks, I hope you feel better.
I don't feel good. I don't feel right. I always feel like there is something else wrong with my brain but everyone just says that it's part of my anxiety. I think there is more to it. I really just want someone to tell me that I'm not right, that I'm defective in some way so that I know all the feelings and thoughts I have aren't "normal."
Srijita52
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I'm sorry, what do you think is wrong?
I don't know. Therapy and medication have helped, but I'm just... lost, I guess. Maybe I just want all of my symptoms to go away and that is never going to happen. But I have conversations with people in my head over and over again and my mind is either racing 100 mph or telling me what a failure I am. I don't know how to explain it all (and I'm not sure that I want to), but I recognize things in me that I'm not sure aren't a symptom of something else. My mother thought I might have been autistic when I was younger. Obviously I'm not, but what if there is something else that I'm ignoring? OCD? Bi-polar disorder? Mental illness gallops like crazy on both sides of my family. I just want a definitive answer to what is wrong with me. I'm tired of always feeling like I'm a freak and spending so much energy trying to hide it.
Alas, I am heading to see my therapist right now. Let's see if I can get these feelings out there and expressed properly.