How are you feeling?

[Shyangel]

That's awesome! Doing donuts in the car would be too much for me but that sounded like fun for you. You will warm to him more eventually. Give it time.

You should give it a try sometime, Mikey, it's really fun. You might be surprised.

I really, hope so. I want to enjoy myself like he and everyone else does. Stop ruining perfectly enjoyable experience with my anxiety. I guess that's what we are all hoping for, though.

 

[EscapeArtist]

i am feeling very a bit down for and angry at myself for making a friend feel pathetic ......i think that i was not able to convey my feelings correctly nd in a proper way...it was nt just the right moment....nd i was nt very sure abt what i was saying...i dint make the right choice of words or i was not not able to to express it properly nd made a mess of it....

It sounds like a misunderstanding, don't worry, it will resolve, you have more chance to talk to them

 

[Shyangel]

i am feeling very a bit down for and angry at myself for making a friend feel pathetic ......i think that i was not able to convey my feelings correctly nd in a proper way...it was nt just the right moment....nd i was nt very sure abt what i was saying...i dint make the right choice of words or i was not not able to to express it properly nd made a mess of it....

Your a great guy, Shy. I'm sure you can talk about it and work things out. Quit kicking yourself.

 

[MikeyC]

You should give it a try sometime, Mikey, it's really fun. You might be surprised.

I really, hope so. I want to enjoy myself like he and everyone else does. Stop ruining perfectly enjoyable experience with my anxiety. I guess that's what we are all hoping for, though.

I understand, and of course.

 

[SilentBird]

Donuts? Wild ::

 

[EscapeArtist]

I feel good....And have spare energy. It's sure been a long time since.

 

[montejocarlo]

I feel good....And have spare energy. It's sure been a long time since.

that's nice.. i hope it stays that way

 

[MikeyC]

I feel good....And have spare energy. It's sure been a long time since.

Fantastic!

 

[Roman Legion]

Feeling pretty bad, for the last year I have been forcing myself to eat.. I feel sick doing so and vomit quite often.. Wish I didn't feel so sick..

 

[Opaline]

Feeling pretty bad, for the last year I have been forcing myself to eat.. I feel sick doing so and vomit quite often.. Wish I didn't feel so sick..

If you don't mind my asking, why is that? Did you just not feel well enough to eat before? No appetite? (if you don't want to answer I totally understand)

 

[Shyangel]

I feel good....And have spare energy. It's sure been a long time since.

I'm glad your feeling great, Escapeartist. I really hope it will keep up.

 

[Roman Legion]

If you don't mind my asking, why is that? Did you just not feel well enough to eat before? No appetite? (if you don't want to answer I totally understand)

I don't have any appetite at all, I eat when I can and try to keep it down.. I was forced to see a medic by a sergeant who noticed this a few months ago, he just told me to go to a doctor. (Like I can afford one) It's weird I know, but I'd like to stop feeling sick after I eat anything.

 

[EscapeArtist]

Feeling pretty bad, for the last year I have been forcing myself to eat.. I feel sick doing so and vomit quite often.. Wish I didn't feel so sick..

Perhaps you have a hidden food sensitivity to something commonly in food?

 

[Roman Legion]

Perhaps you have a hidden food sensitivity to something commonly in food?

It doesn't matter what I eat, all food goes down the same.. I tried this theory when I was at training and the military was paying for my food.. I spent a lot of time at Fort Bliss, TX vomiting in the desert.. I stopped eating and felt a bit better for a short while at least. Medics have no idea what's going on and neither do I. Could it be malnutrition or something?

 

[lonely_drummer]

Started off feeling good and feeling like I was in great recover mode but just went to see another doctor today and been drinking since I got back, even tho I shouldn't be drinking while on these anti seizure pills I don't give a ****!!! Found out I'm gonna need surgery on my one shoulder. Which means on top of this 6 weeks of not playing guitar, I'm gonna need an additional 8 weeks to recover from surgery. **** this, **** that Im ****ing sick of this stupid ****ing bull****!!!! Better off ****ing killing myself, aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **** it I don't care why should anyone else. All I do is bitch about this stupid music ****, that's how my dad put it. Boohooo it's just a ****ing hobby, not like it makes my life significantly better. It's a joke that I take too seriously is what mom says. Urrrrgggg I should just die, why waste the surgeons materials and time to fix some piece of **** that will waste his life on music. Blaaaaaah

 

[Opaline]

Feeling very sleepy at the moment. A pleasant feeling.

Not looking forward to work tomorrow, though. But when do I ever. 8 hour shifts at minimum wage jobs suck. Or maybe 8 hour shifts suck no matter where they are

Sorry to be morbid/negative, but I sincerely hope I don't wake up tomorrow. Haha. I am so used to thinking that, that it isn't even sad to me any more. It just... is.

Really though, I need to stop posting negative stuff here. I may not feel great the majority of the time right now, but I can still make an effort to say nicer things or at least not say not so nice things so much.

Anywho, after yet another too-long post... Goodnight.

 

[shyindian]

You can correct it when the time is right.

Your a great guy, Shy. I'm sure you can talk about it and work things out. Quit kicking yourself.

It sounds like a misunderstanding, don't worry, it will resolve, you have more chance to talk to them

i am feeling very a bit down for and angry at myself for making a friend feel pathetic ......i think that i was not able to convey my feelings correctly nd in a proper way...it was nt just the right moment....nd i was nt very sure abt what i was saying...i dint make the right choice of words or i was not not able to to express it properly nd made a mess of it....

thanks for ur suggestions....i hope that i dint make her feel bad..i hope it gets sorted out quickly

 

[SilentBird]

lonely_drummer, I can tell that playing music is very, very important to you. It's a gross insult if anyone says otherwise.

 

[SilentBird]

Tally Lyra, I don't see anything wrong with you expressing your frustration as much as you need to here. I hope once you get enough out of your system you will feel lighter.

 

[Srijita52]

Started off feeling good and feeling like I was in great recover mode but just went to see another doctor today and been drinking since I got back, even tho I shouldn't be drinking while on these anti seizure pills I don't give a ****!!! Found out I'm gonna need surgery on my one shoulder. Which means on top of this 6 weeks of not playing guitar, I'm gonna need an additional 8 weeks to recover from surgery. **** this, **** that Im ****ing sick of this stupid ****ing bull****!!!! Better off ****ing killing myself, aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **** it I don't care why should anyone else. All I do is bitch about this stupid music ****, that's how my dad put it. Boohooo it's just a ****ing hobby, not like it makes my life significantly better. It's a joke that I take too seriously is what mom says. Urrrrgggg I should just die, why waste the surgeons materials and time to fix some piece of **** that will waste his life on music. Blaaaaaah

I'm so sorry..

I feel good....And have spare energy. It's sure been a long time since.

That's great!