MikeyC
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What? No way. Why do you say that? Because of a dream?This world isn't built for waste like me ::
How are you feeling?
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WeirdyMcGee
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Happy birthday, Lady Amalthea!
Keep posting and keep trying your best to achieve your goals!
lonely_drummer
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No, not just from my dream. I'm freakin out about everything. Sometimes I really wish the world would just fall apart so I don't have to worry about my little mundane problems anymore like money or relationships. All I know is that there isn't much hope for me in this cruel world. I will never be able to handle a steady job, a working relationship or even myself for that matter. So without these basic skills, I'm pretty much screwed for any light of true happiness so what's the point?
MikeyC
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You have put into words what I feel about myself, but I can see lots in you, even from here. You're a great musician and you're into physics, which is something you can pick up at a later date when you're more into it. You bike ride, too, so you're fit and like the outdoors. You seem like an approachable fellow, so the women are sure to notice. You have lots going for you. You just can't see it.
Feeling_Nothing
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Did everything I have to do this week back to being lonely...
back to being lonely...
MikeyC
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Sorry, dude. That must be hell for you.Did everything I have to do this week
lonely_drummer
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Yeah, I definitely don't see it. I just don't think things will change, I will always feel this way about myself. Even if every single person came up and said that I was a good person, I still wouldn't believe them. And if women were bound to notice, well it sure hasn't happened yet which makes me really think that it won't ever happen. I don't deserve any of their attention. I don't deserve anything, even life if this is the way I'm going to use it.
MikeyC
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I see how you feel and that's really sad. I think you're doing really well.
Dumb. fugly. Like nothing will ever change. Everything I go after and bust my bum for come out looking crappy or was just a waste of my time. Also I hate unappreciative people, who don't see that the "small things" are really the biggest, you can try and try to see good, but they're to stupid/dumb like they're mothers flung um out the windows as a child. So tired of this lifetime, it's making me rebellious, but rebellion will only make me dislike my self even more. There are way too many wolves dressed as sheep, only if they had a heard chasing them off cliffs. I'm agitated and impulsive.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
It's been 2 months and, as yet, I'm still waiting for counseling to start. So, frustrated, pissed off, irritated. All of the above, and more. I've been wondering why I even bother anymore. I mean, seriously, why? :: Sorry, my depression has been pretty bad, lately. And I'm far from happy, despite all the hours spent watching sitcoms and comedy movies, recently. Happiness seems to be a temporary thing for me, as of late.
Been keeping to myself alot lately as well. No point burdening other family members with my problems. It's not like they get it, anyway. My mum's being her usual emotionally distant self when it comes to my depression and anxiety issues, "I don't know" seems to be her default response whenever I try talking with her. So I gave up trying to get any support from her. If only I had a better relationship with both my parent, maybe then I wouldn't be the way I am, currently, and I'd be alot happier. ::
: Sorry, my depression has been pretty bad, lately. And I'm far from happy, despite all the hours spent watching sitcoms and comedy movies, recently. Happiness seems to be a temporary thing for me, as of late.Been keeping to myself alot lately as well. No point burdening other family members with my problems. It's not like they get it, anyway. My mum's being her usual emotionally distant self when it comes to my depression and anxiety issues, "I don't know" seems to be her default response whenever I try talking with her. So I gave up trying to get any support from her. If only I had a better relationship with both my parent, maybe then I wouldn't be the way I am, currently, and I'd be alot happier. :
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Vampayah88
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Feeling_Nothing
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Feeling like a taxi driver...everyone calls me when they NEED something, for example in 30 minutes I have to drive my aunts kids around, tomorrow same thing. But when they don't need anything you never see them! I'm going to be so glad when I finally move away...
MikeyC
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Went out tonight to a couple of nightclubs. I had an alright time, to be honest, but I'm not suited to places like that. The guys are all too aggressive around women and I can't compete. I felt fat the whole night. My anxiety around women was a constant white noise.
Despite all of that, getting out of the house was a good idea. I don't feel that much better but I'm still glad I did it. I've been awake for 24 hours now.
Despite all of that, getting out of the house was a good idea. I don't feel that much better but I'm still glad I did it. I've been awake for 24 hours now.
Boby
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That's great Mikey,at least you get out ,going to nightclubs ,you are on the right road in my opinion.
I only wished i had the guts to go to a nightclub:
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MikeyC
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Thanks, but I don't know if it's a good road.That's great Mikey,at least you get out ,going to nightclubs ,you are on the right road in my opinion.
I only wished i had the guts to go to a nightclub:
See, I have no trouble going to nightclubs - the loud music and drunk people don't draw attention to myself. But once a girl is next to me, I can't even look at her. I can't flirt. It's a huge problem. Hopefully I'll get over it one day.
Boby
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I know exactly the feeling and that's why I usually avoid going to night clubs or a party because I'm afraid of the awkward moment when a girl approaches me and I don't know what to do(well I kinda know what to do but I'm to afraid to do it)
But as I said at least you try,not like me spending most of the time home.
Feeling_Nothing
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I'm feeling particularly MEH today.
lonely_drummer
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Good to hear you had a good time. Clubs aren't my thing at all either and for the same reasons as you. But like you said its just good to get out of the house
MikeyC
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Yeah, it is more awkward than it needs to be, eh? I've been trying for years and the problem persists. Don't really know what to do.
I had a good time. It wasn't all great (my friend purposefully bragging about how great he is mentally, for example) but it was enjoyable enough and something different from my routine.