How are you feeling?
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Invisibleman
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My moms not worried because she thinks I cant handle university,shes worried because I think I cant. Her confidence in me is so high and mine is so f#$kin low.
And I feel like a failure because im in my last year of highschool and I dont have job,everybody else spends their own money whereas I still have to borrow from my parents. Im also the least independent of anybody. Everybody else has jobs,their own money, bank accounts,credit cards,insurance blah blah BLAH basically everything you have to face in adulthood theyre already doing except me. They basically live like adults at this stage and I still just feel like a mindless kid. and no my grades didnt suck I do quite well academically.
Phoenixx
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Extremely lonely and depressed. Even though I have a friend over (she's sleeping now) and another one coming later, I still can't get myself out of this crappy mood. It didn't help that I went shopping today on Black Friday. At least I got half of my gifts done, but so many people. O.O Not to mention I had my friend with me, and we ran into quite a few old classmates (who I really didn't want to see or talk to), so she had to stop and chat a bit. I was out for too long, and now I'm exhausted. Still can't get my mind off these next two weeks, with finals coming up and the end of the semester, I don't even know what to do about next month. I just don't even know anymore. I know I'm not staying at my current college, but I don't know what to do from there. I have options, but I'm just so worried about money. Ugh... >.<
Just ignore all the complaining. Ranting, as usual.
Just ignore all the complaining. Ranting, as usual.
jonas89
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well it's often like that, even tho you have close friend or people that you usually enjoy their company with. The brain is a weird organ that does only those thing that he likes hehe
MollyBeGood
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WeirdyMcGee
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scared
paranoid
anxious
I hate fridays.
paranoid
anxious
I hate fridays.
this_portrait
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I'm disgusted.
MollyBeGood
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you @$#% go *%&# yerself.
mad mad
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DeadmanWalking
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By what?
狼;544580 said:
you @$#% go *%&# yerself.
mad mad
Hm? What's up? Someone cross your line? Care to talk about it?
Invisibleman
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I had an awkward experience at school today that left me rattled (im alright now lol). I was just sitting in the cafeteria on my free period enjoying the peace and quiet,there were a bunch of school bands from all different schools at my school for whatever reason.
lunchtime came so an armada of band people swarm into the cafeteria and before I know it im in the middle of a table full of people from different schools that I didnt know. They all just sat around me and trapped me in,two girls on either side of me looked at me and said an awkward hello and asked if they could sit and did before I could say anything . I had to sit there the entire time just looking down at the table,I actually felt my breath getting short like I was going to die. seriously there were hundreds of people there. I managed to just leap up and get the hell out of there and powerwalk down the hall as fast as I could.
lunchtime came so an armada of band people swarm into the cafeteria and before I know it im in the middle of a table full of people from different schools that I didnt know. They all just sat around me and trapped me in,two girls on either side of me looked at me and said an awkward hello and asked if they could sit and did before I could say anything . I had to sit there the entire time just looking down at the table,I actually felt my breath getting short like I was going to die. seriously there were hundreds of people there. I managed to just leap up and get the hell out of there and powerwalk down the hall as fast as I could.
this_portrait
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A few things. I don't really want to get into why.
I have a headache thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis badly.
That didn't even make any sense.
That didn't even make any sense.
Aletheia
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I ran into my most recent ex-boyfriend in town on Thursday, and he's been txting me ever since.
I would like to be on friendly terms. There were good reasons why we got together in the first place, and I've stayed in touch with most of my exes.
But this has made me realize that I'm still carrying around a lot of anger towards him. I never hold grudges, so I don't know what's going on. Maybe it's because I didn't have a chance to process the anger at the time, so it's hardened into a tight little knot. I still need to work through the causes of it with him, but if we were capable of that, I wouldn't have left him in the first place.
I don't want to spend time with him. I don't like being angry. I wish I could put it to one side, but I'm this close to telling him to fo&d.
Bah.
I would like to be on friendly terms. There were good reasons why we got together in the first place, and I've stayed in touch with most of my exes.
But this has made me realize that I'm still carrying around a lot of anger towards him. I never hold grudges, so I don't know what's going on. Maybe it's because I didn't have a chance to process the anger at the time, so it's hardened into a tight little knot. I still need to work through the causes of it with him, but if we were capable of that, I wouldn't have left him in the first place.
I don't want to spend time with him. I don't like being angry. I wish I could put it to one side, but I'm this close to telling him to fo&d.
Bah.
Aletheia
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Oh, headaches are the worst. Do you have something you can take for it?
Aletheia
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Why Fridays, Weirdy?
MikeyC
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Okay, long post coming up.
I've been feeling really depressed lately, to the point of not being able to hide it as well as I'd been used to. However, last night I went to my mate's place just to hang out, have a couple of drinks, and listen to some music. There were 5 of us there (me, John, Darren, Corinne, Brooke). I had met Brooke that night and I hadn't seen Corinne, John's ex, in several months.
The night was relatively okay. However, there were times where I felt really left out. Darren and Brooke are dating and were at each other's side for most of the night, and John and Corinne, being ex's and still friends, were talking to each other, which meant I sat there quietly on occasions. At one point it got that awkward that I pretended to go to the bathroom just so I could get away.
Corinne basically came around because we hadn't seen each other in a while, and I had been texting her about my depression and whatnot. Late in the night she told me she was sorry that we couldn't find 20 minutes to speak about it because Brooke was latching on to her, as well (being the only other girl there). I told her it was alright. Darren and John said the same things not too long later.
Corinne is basically one of the nicest people you'll ever meet. She always has time for me and, were she not my best mate's ex and I didn't have my issues, I wouldn't mind dating her. She's 5 years older than me but that's okay. Basically, she's beautiful inside and out, and I'm glad I know her.
John was drunk late that night and told me he's worried about me due to my issues. I told him not to worry. He, Darren, and I ended up hugging because they were drunk.
Brooke cried later in the night because she thought Darren was hitting on Corinne. That was not the case at all and I had to try and reassure her of that. Brooke is really smitten with Darren and I am envisioning her heart being broken in the near future. Darren's a cool guy but not one for settling down and I can't see it ending well for Brooke at all. I hope I'm wrong, though.
There was more to the night but I'll leave it there. To conclude, the night wasn't that great because I still felt very depressed, but seeing Corinne and some of the nice words said to me have made me feel a little bit better, even if not much.
Thanks for reading.
I've been feeling really depressed lately, to the point of not being able to hide it as well as I'd been used to. However, last night I went to my mate's place just to hang out, have a couple of drinks, and listen to some music. There were 5 of us there (me, John, Darren, Corinne, Brooke). I had met Brooke that night and I hadn't seen Corinne, John's ex, in several months.
The night was relatively okay. However, there were times where I felt really left out. Darren and Brooke are dating and were at each other's side for most of the night, and John and Corinne, being ex's and still friends, were talking to each other, which meant I sat there quietly on occasions. At one point it got that awkward that I pretended to go to the bathroom just so I could get away.
Corinne basically came around because we hadn't seen each other in a while, and I had been texting her about my depression and whatnot. Late in the night she told me she was sorry that we couldn't find 20 minutes to speak about it because Brooke was latching on to her, as well (being the only other girl there). I told her it was alright. Darren and John said the same things not too long later.
Corinne is basically one of the nicest people you'll ever meet. She always has time for me and, were she not my best mate's ex and I didn't have my issues, I wouldn't mind dating her. She's 5 years older than me but that's okay. Basically, she's beautiful inside and out, and I'm glad I know her.
John was drunk late that night and told me he's worried about me due to my issues. I told him not to worry. He, Darren, and I ended up hugging because they were drunk.
Brooke cried later in the night because she thought Darren was hitting on Corinne. That was not the case at all and I had to try and reassure her of that. Brooke is really smitten with Darren and I am envisioning her heart being broken in the near future. Darren's a cool guy but not one for settling down and I can't see it ending well for Brooke at all. I hope I'm wrong, though.
There was more to the night but I'll leave it there. To conclude, the night wasn't that great because I still felt very depressed, but seeing Corinne and some of the nice words said to me have made me feel a little bit better, even if not much.
Thanks for reading.
this_portrait
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Hey, sorry to hear that you're feeling down. I'm glad those things helped you feel at least a little better, and I hope things go well for you and your friends.