How are you feeling?

[planemo]

Honestly? Well... I think I'm going to give up trying to make my mum understand what I'm going with the the depression and anxiety. Seems we can talk about anything else, but the minute I start trying to open up about how I'm feeling - denial, ignorance and general hostility toward me.

"Why bother taking anything seriously?" - this was her response yesterday when I asked why I can never seem to talk with her about my problems. ::

I know what you're going through. I tried to speak to my mum many years ago about my problems. She just gave me the "you're burdening me more than you should" treatment. So i went on as if nothing was wrong, and unfortunately my situation worsened considerably.

that's the way i'm perceived in my household. everyone is happy when i'm invisible and i don't need any attention. when i do need some kind of attention or perhaps show others that not everything is perfect in my life, yep i get hostility and denial too.

the thing i learned is that i can't make my family care for me when they don't want to. i was always given the cold shoulder and nothing i do can change that. i hope it isn't the same with your mum. maybe in time she'll be more open and accepting.

 

[Siegfried]

today... melancholic..., having suicidal thoughts lately, not like im gonna do something i think, just thinking how it would be

 

[this_portrait]

I got a bit of internal frustration that is really bothering me right now.

 

[Graeme1988]

I know what you're going through. I tried to speak to my mum many years ago about my problems. She just gave me the "you're burdening me more than you should" treatment. So i went on as if nothing was wrong, and unfortunately my situation worsened considerably.

that's the way i'm perceived in my household. everyone is happy when i'm invisible and i don't need any attention. when i do need some kind of attention or perhaps show others that not everything is perfect in my life, yep i get hostility and denial too.

the thing i learned is that i can't make my family care for me when they don't want to. i was always given the cold shoulder and nothing i do can change that. i hope it isn't the same with your mum. maybe in time she'll be more open and accepting.

I feel my situation has gotten worse as well. Some of what you said sounds, depressingly, similar to my family, actually. I'm seen as the "reclusive loner" according to my mum and older sisters - part of me has accepted that to a degree. So, I tend not to draw much attention to myself.

I don't know if my mum will ever change, though. I seem to get the all negativity from her, have done since I was a teenager. Any attempts to challenge this point of view is pretty much met with silence or she just says "I don't know". Like she does whenever I try explaining my anxiety issues. Maybe she'll change, but, given how she reactions when I try talking about my problems, I can't see that change happening anytime soon, though.

 

[Invisibleman]

Im looking on facebook and seeing countless statuses about everybody getting accepted into university,with comments underneath from all their friends and family congratulating them . I havent applied anywhere yet because I dont know what I want to do and the pressures getting to me. I dont know if I can even handle university,my moms worried. I feel like a failure...

 

[planemo]

I feel my situation has gotten worse as well. Some of what you said sounds, depressingly, similar to my family, actually. I'm seen as the "reclusive loner" according to my mum and older sisters - part of me has accepted that to a degree. So, I tend not to draw much attention to myself.

I don't know if my mum will ever change, though. I seem to get the all negativity from her, have done since I was a teenager. Any attempts to challenge this point of view is pretty much met with silence or she just says "I don't know". Like she does whenever I try explaining my anxiety issues. Maybe she'll change, but, given how she reactions when I try talking about my problems, I can't see that change happening anytime soon, though.

I guess it's not an easy thing to do, but if your mum is unlikely to change, then you have to let go of wanting things from someone who can't see things from your perspective. I had to finally accept that other people, even strangers, are shown more importance than me, by my family. It's tough to do, because something inside us all wants to believe those closest to us, care for us the most.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm just not good. I have been summoned for jury duty on Monday, despite having expensive plans for Wednesday. I tried to get an exemption but it looks like nobody gives a **** about it.

I've had a horrible day. I'll be going to my friend's place in a couple of hours and hopefully that'll be alright.

 

[Aletheia]

Empty.


Here are your other four characters done.

 

[BlueDays]

I'm just not good. I have been summoned for jury duty on Monday, despite having expensive plans for Wednesday. I tried to get an exemption but it looks like nobody gives a **** about it.

I've had a horrible day. I'll be going to my friend's place in a couple of hours and hopefully that'll be alright.

Sorry to hear you've had a crappy day Mikey::
Hopefully some time with your friend will cheer you up!

I've never been summoned for jury duty before, so I can't offer any advice about how to cope with it :/

 

[MikeyC]

Empty.

What's wrong?

Sorry to hear you've had a crappy day Mikey::
Hopefully some time with your friend will cheer you up!

I've never been summoned for jury duty before, so I can't offer any advice about how to cope with it :/

I'm just so depressed constantly. It's killing me inside. When I'm with my friend I'll have to fake happiness which will hopefully lead to actual happiness, even if only for a few hours.

I had never been summoned before until this year, where I've been summoned four times. The first 3 I didn't need to attend, but this one I do. I pray I can get out of it quickly.

 

[BlueDays]

Empty.


Here are your other four characters done.

:: Sends Aletheia a big ((cyber-Hug))

A good comedy movie helps fill the void temporarily when I am in an Empty phase. Do you have something you can do for temporary relief? I find even just having a small break from the "nothing" feelings can help.

 

[shadowsnip]

i feel like complete crap. I honestly haven't felt this bad in a while. I started this thread on this wargaming site about how my brother and gf get competitive when we play and I was looking for advice and most the things I got just told me that I was a twerp along with my friends. It made me pretty pissed off so I lashed out at them then the entire site got on me except for a few people. here it is DakkaDakka - Warhammer 40K Forums - Game night gets way too competitive

Another thing thats bothering me is my family. My dad doesn't seem to give a **** about us. He left my mom (blah blah blah insert divorce story here) and he isnt there for us. He never gives my mom food claiming my girl friend and younger brother and I are all old enough to work and that we should feed her. Well sad thing is... I'm leaving for the army in 4 months and I really don't want/need to have a job (i had one at A.C Moore and the people there depressed me because they had no direction in life) My girlfriend just got hired at McDonalds from Marshalls and she is in a 2 week waiting period for the job transfer or whatever. So It's really not a good excuse. Idk what I'm saying. I'm just pretty crappy right now and I'm venting. Please allow me to continue to vent.

The main reason why I'm so pissed off is because I feel like everywhere I go I get bad vibes from people. Like that whole forum I was talking about gives me bad vibes. Everyone on there I feel as though hates me and wants to have nothing to do with me. And the thread just kind of validates those feelings. I mean I love modelling and playing warhammer 40k but when I go into the comic book store those kids always stare at me for a brief second and assess me as "no good". I don't get those vibes else where though so that also validates that nerdy people don't like me even though I am kind of a nerd.

I'm so stressed that I keep having to take care of my girlfriend and my little brother. Not to mention I'm always having conflicts with my older brother and at the same time trying to keep my oxycotin addicted mom sane. Sad thing is I'm the one everyone points the fingers at. But the Most fethed up thing is whenever i stand up for myself I turn out to be the bad guy.

Can someone please just mediate me? just talk to me and say something that will make me feel better but at the same time don't tell me cliches? Sorry if I'm so forthcoming. I'm not looking for attention I just want to feel better.

 

[superfluouslyme]

Im looking on facebook and seeing countless statuses about everybody getting accepted into university,with comments underneath from all their friends and family congratulating them . I havent applied anywhere yet because I dont know what I want to do and the pressures getting to me. I dont know if I can even handle university,my moms worried. I feel like a failure...

Have you talked to your mom about your feelings? Does she know how upset you are?

I went through the exact same thing after high school. I ended up going to community college for 3 years, and I have to say, it was a great decision. It's like stepping into the college "pool" instead of diving in head first.

I'm sorry that everyone is feeling so bad lately. I ended up having a good Thanksgiving with my family. I am so stuffed!

 

[shadowsnip]

Im looking on facebook and seeing countless statuses about everybody getting accepted into university,with comments underneath from all their friends and family congratulating them . I havent applied anywhere yet because I dont know what I want to do and the pressures getting to me. I dont know if I can even handle university,my moms worried. I feel like a failure...

Why not just apply to places you're interested in for the hell of it? I mean it's not that hard and it's not like by applying you get committed to a university. And don't worry about your mother. It's not your job to worry about how your mom's feeling about if YOU can handle college or not. It's on YOU not your mother. Its YOUR life not your moms. Worry for yourself. And why do you feel like a failure? did your grades suck or something? If they didn't then you're not a failure and even if you had bad grades but still gave it your all then you're still not a failure. Don't fret my friend. Besides, even if you don't get into a college you can still get into community college (everyone gets in there lol) and then transfer to a nice school.

btw thats why I don't have a facebook. All the unecessary drama

 

[Srijita52]

I'm haapppyyy!! I really want this feeling to last.

 

[Graeme1988]

Isolated. Not sure whether or not to celebrate Christmas this year. Given that I'm the only atheist in my family, that I'm aware of, anyway. Personally, I don't really want to.

But my sister is coming to visit, so it quite likely I'll be guilt-tripped into joining in the celebrations. Like last year. Or else risk upsetting her and everybody else in the process. And causing an argument (I always manage to cause an argument) because I have a tendency to antagonize certain members of my familly, just for giving my opinion.

 

[Piece_By_Piece]

Awful. And mad.

My friends ditched me, again. It's another weekend just wallowing in my misery I guess. Like I haven't been doing that for the whole week. Being with my friends after a long time would've probably made me feel better, but now hopes of starting to feel better are low again. It'll be another forever until they'll have time to hang out with me, also they might ditch me once again, which they've done a lot lately. It's too bad, because these two people are pretty much my only friends. Not that I care too much for them either. I guess I'm just not made to have friends or have people like me. Well, sod that then.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Awful. And mad.

My friends ditched me, again. It's another weekend just wallowing in my misery I guess. Like I haven't been doing that for the whole week. Being with my friends after a long time would've probably made me feel better, but now hopes of starting to feel better are low again. It'll be another forever until they'll have time to hang out with me, also they might ditch me once again, which they've done a lot lately. It's too bad, because these two people are pretty much my only friends. Not that I care too much for them either. I guess I'm just not made to have friends or have people like me. Well, sod that then.

*hugs* Hey there, it'll be alright.

Now, do your friends have a history of ditching you? If/When you asked them about it, what was their excuse? Try answering those questions. If the answers are negative, then it's time to go find some new friends because yanking your chain is not a sign of friendship. You are made to have friends; you have us and, since that's possible, you can have other friends as well! You've just got to step out of your cage into the jungle we call life and find some friends. Look around in your area and try to find any clubs you're interested in, volunteer events, or just talking to someone on the road. As long as you keep a happy attitude and positive body language, someone will be willing to talk with you! Just don't lose hope, okay? Once you do that, then you've completely lost and you'll remain in this miserable situation. Hopefully, today will brighten up your day!

 

[this_portrait]

I feel better after taking a nap, but I still feel groggy. I think I may need more sleep.

 

[MoonBoom]

Feel like I have the hangover from hell! :|

Sounds like someone had a good thanksgiving!
Keep that water and tylenol handy.