How do i feel ??? I feel anxious but still hopeful that things will be ok in the end , as if social anxiety wasnt bad enough , generalized social anxiety disorder at that , the extreme kind , i also have alcohol addiction which really pushes me to the brink , that is suicide territory , and i relapsed on sunday and am back on them damn smokes again , feeling huge guilt for worrying my great family , but am happy cos my internet got fixed so i can come to this great site and not feel like a mutant of some sort alone in this vortex of extreme soul bending misery , i like reading all of your stories , i just feel like my life is passing me by , the best days of my life have been my worst days of my life , im a christian , and if it wasnt for that i dont think i could handle all this , God shone a light into my pit of despair and he gave me hope of a future with joy and happiness but i dont think ill get that till the next life , if any of you want to talk about that email me , it helps so much and explains so much , your all great people here and id love for you to have what i have , it truly is the only reason im still here , hang in there guys , their is hope , and keep the faith , peace , love you all , Robbie 
