Last week I won a $25.00 gift card to Chilli's at work, and tonight got to use it! I haven't been there in years, so it was a nice win! It was very yummy and got to spend some time with my sis, her husband and my son.
My anxiety is like 85% gone and now whenever I get anxious I somewhat enjoy the feeling. Not only do I get to face it head on and prove to myself its nothing, I enjoy the nervy feeling. I call it the rollercoaster feeling
Keep meaning to post about how I'm getting/got better but haven't got round to it yet
I just cleaned my room, lol it really needed doing.
Today i went to the duck pond and fed the ducks, i haven't done that in ages and it made me smile doing it. Then i thought eff it i'm out now and i went for a walk, ended up going to the shops and did a bit of retail therapy, and when i got home i worked out for a bit, so all in all today was a very good day for me
Oh and i nearly forgot, tomorrow i am meeting some old friends, i'm scared silly about it, but i know it will be ok
My happy ending to today I suppose shouldn't be called a happy ending..but it feels a bit like it to me. I just got back home from a friend's house, the ones that don't treat me the best because I told them off. Mainly my "best friend" and we'll just see where this leads. I informed her that I was way to good of a friend for her, I was tired of dealing with a b*tch and she'd soon realize that I'm pretty much all she has..and I don't mean that in a conceited way of course. I just said you better think about it and left. I feel somewhat relieved.
My happy ending to today I suppose shouldn't be called a happy ending..but it feels a bit like it to me. I just got back home from a friend's house, the ones that don't treat me the best because I told them off. Mainly my "best friend" and we'll just see where this leads. I informed her that I was way to good of a friend for her, I was tired of dealing with a b*tch and she'd soon realize that I'm pretty much all she has..and I don't mean that in a conceited way of course. I just said you better think about it and left. I feel somewhat relieved.
I had sex today
I had to buy new pants today. Normally I'd grab a pair and buy them, and if they didn't fit then I'd have my boyfriend take them back for me and get a size bigger (or smaller, as the case may be), but today I actually went to the fitting room, which involved talking to the lady. It's been at least a year since I actually tried clothes on at a store.
well things just got interesting ::
That's awesome. I'm glad you stood up for yourself
i managed to somehow magically lose half a stone in weight since early january!!
i managed to somehow magically lose half a stone in weight since early january!!
A lot of times I tend to forget all the people around me who care, I let my problems become this wave over my head that I can't control because I don't talk about how I'm feeling with everyone. But I've been feeling incredibly lonely and down on myself, worse than I've ever been before.
Thanks to the help of all the wonderful people on this forum, with two key people I'd like to mention..Kat and Paula, you allowed me to explain my feelings before they progressed into something worse, which I fear they were headed.
You all are wonderful people and I can't thank you enough for your amazing support