Do you want to die?

[Feathers]

I want death, but I am afraid of the process. If I could shut off my fear of death, I would take my own life in a heart beat. (no pun intended)

Well don't you think that if you want to get into a relationship with someone you need to be emotionally stronger?
There are not just 'sunny days' even if you meet the love of your life.. So you need to develop some kind of resilience to keep you going, even if things are bad.. There are things you can do to develop that resilience..

lyrical or anyone else, lots of people get suicidal or even do the deed around holidays, so don't let temporary stress make you think or do something you might avoid when thinking more rationally later on when the stress is over..
Just accept holidays are a time of stress for many people, and life is hard for many people in different situations too..

 

[panicsurvivor]

I changed my mind. Yes. I want to die.::::::::

 

[BlueDays]

I changed my mind. Yes. I want to die.::::::::

Hang in there panicsurvivor!
You have kids don't you? Just survive for them atm. Your desire to live may come back sooner than you think.

 

[Confuseddd]

death, a permanent solution? no, more like death, a cowards decision...

What a waste...
A waste of so much potential, of so many possibilitys for you and of all the good you could do. I believe in every human, i believe we all have the capacity to do something for the world, to give back to people what we wanted for ourselfs. You have not lost until you make the DECISION to give up. If you search for meaning to your lifes... Then why give up just because it is not easy finding that answer out? You have your whole damn life to figure it out. It saddens me to think that people would ever consider suicide. More then that it angers me... read this, not once, but twice, and understand what i am saying, please, all of you who think they want to die. when i said i believe in you, i ment it. I am talking to who ever reads this. i dont know you, but i dont have to.

 

[lunaticbinge]

death, a permanent solution? no, more like death, a cowards decision...

What a waste...
A waste of so much potential, of so many possibilitys for you and of all the good you could do. I believe in every human, i believe we all have the capacity to do something for the world, to give back to people what we wanted for ourselfs. You have not lost until you make the DECISION to give up. If you search for meaning to your lifes... Then why give up just because it is not easy finding that answer out? You have your whole damn life to figure it out. It saddens me to think that people would ever consider suicide. More then that it angers me... read this, not once, but twice, and understand what i am saying, please, all of you who think they want to die. when i said i believe in you, i ment it. I am talking to who ever reads this. i dont know you, but i dont have to.

I'm trying really hard to not lash out here...*phew* That was a close one.
I for one like things easy. If death is the easy way out, sign me the hell up. Why would I want to do something hard over something that's easy? Just so I can say I did? Utterly pointless. As for it being a cowardly act I couldn't possibly disagree more. Being able to step past the threshold of eternity gets nothing but admiration from me. Takes way more balls than I have at the moment. I've seen what life gives and i'm not impressed. Waiter, check please!

 

[Confuseddd]

I'm trying really hard to not lash out here...*phew* That was a close one.
I for one like things easy. If death is the easy way out, sign me the hell up. Why the **** would I want to do something hard over something that's easy? Just so I can say I did? Utterly pointless. I've seen what life gives and i'm not impressed. Waiter! Check please!

Not just so you can say you did, can you not think deeper then yourself?
I asked you to actually contemplate what i had wrote, and obviously sir you have not thought any deeper then surface level, or past yourself for that matter. lash out at me? for what? for what i believe? frankly i could give a s**t less if you lash out at me, instead of debating without being overly emotional like two intelligent people should be able to do. Please lash out at me for believing in people. Lash out at me for wanting to give back to others what i wanted for myself.

OH but no i will take the easy way out instead of attempting to do whats right. So maybe, just f**king maybe i can spare someone the suffering that i have expierenced in my life.

 

[lunaticbinge]

Not just so you can say you did, can you not think deeper then yourself?
I asked you to actually contemplate what i had wrote, and obviously sir you have not thought any deeper then surface level, or past yourself for that matter. lash out at me? for what? for what i believe? frankly i could give a s**t less if you lash out at me, instead of debating without being overly emotional like two intelligent people should be able to do. Please lash out at me for believing in people. Lash out at me for wanting to give back to others what i wanted for myself.

OH but no i will take the easy way out instead of attempting to do whats right. So maybe, just f**king maybe i can spare someone the suffering that i have expierenced in my life.

I see nothing to contemplate. I, and many others, can't stand the world and don't really care to "give back" to it. Call that selfish, I don't really care. Life is hard enough without worrying about other people. We never wanted anything from it to begin with, though. I'm not saying that it's hopeless for everyone that is suicidal. Many of them are probably just in bad periods of life. You're right that people can do great things. Is it so hard to believe though, that someone could simply not be cut out for life? That their mind, either from the beginning or from conditioning throughout life, has become incapable of finding something worth living for?

I didn't lash out at you. I kept myself from lashing out regardless of you insulting those who have taken their lives, including a good friend of mine not even three months ago. Who is anyone to say that someone should live if they have been suffering endlessly? The perception of reality for some people is just past the point of no return. And death is preferable to a living hell.

 

[lunarla]

Certainly not at the moment. I have before, more than once now. One very recent. The thing that might be most scary, in hindsight, is that I really see so much in living. I can say that now. But when I have gotten into certain states, it's like, all of it is nothing. Good thing those states are relatively short-lived. Takes longer to find an acceptable method for death and time spent lingering and liking the thought, than the actual intense feeling and urge for it lasts. For me, at least.

 

[Confuseddd]

I see nothing to contemplate. I, and many others, can't stand the world and don't really care to "give back" to it. Call that selfish, I don't really care. Life is hard enough without worrying about other people. We never wanted anything from it to begin with, though. I'm not saying that it's hopeless for everyone that is suicidal. Many of them are probably just in bad periods of life. You're right that people can do great things. Is it so hard to believe though, that someone could simply not be cut out for life? That their mind, either from the beginning or from conditioning throughout life, has become incapable of finding something worth living for?

I didn't lash out at you. I kept myself from lashing out regardless of you insulting those who have taken their lives, including a good friend of mine not even three months ago. Who is anyone to say that someone should live if they have been suffering endlessly? The perception of reality for some people is just past the point of no return. And death is preferable to a living hell.

Do you think your the only one who has personal ties to suicide? What if your suffering could have been prevented, if only there were more people who thought on a deeper level then themselfs? what if i said it IS being selfish and if you dont care to give back to the world then why should the world care about your suffering? Do you truely think suicide is justifiable just because you cant find that meaning you crave so much? Thats like not being able to solve a puzzle so you just give up completely because, hell IT AINT EASY?!? anything worth fighting for is never easy, and i know my suffering is a product of people not caring. When people decide to give up it only perpetuates the cycle. I WANT TO END THE CYCLE, and judging from your personal expeierence, you should want to end it as well. If not for yourself, then for other people. For others like your friend. If not for any of those reasons, then simply because your here wether you like it or not, so above all else, lets do what we can.

 

[CosmicNeurotica]

What I want is to be able to share myself with another person in this life.
But as time goes on that seems about impossible.
So if death can take me to my dreams, sure.
Otherwise I'll stay in this one and keep dreaming.

 

[userremoved]

Suddenly it sounds like a good idea. I've got no good reason to stay here anymore. I shouldn't have said anything to my dad about it because he hid the weapons from me. I would rather it be quick. Hes wasting his time though. All I need is a few drinks to set the mood and I can say goodby to this ****ed up world.

 

[Confuseddd]

Suddenly it sounds like a good idea. I've got no good reason to stay here anymore. I shouldn't have said anything to my dad about it because he hid the weapons from me. I would rather it be quick. Hes wasting his time though. All I need is a few drinks to set the mood and I can say goodby to this ****ed up world.

buddy, please dont. I am willing to put my left testicle on the line, that you have much to offer in this world. Now thats a giant leap of faith right? Please, i like my balls.

 

[Dronee]

Ah well.. I originally wrote a long thing here. But I guess it's difficult for me to talk about myself. Enough to say that what I believe is that one should just find an objective that one desires and put in the effort needed.

 

[luck254]

Simple question, yes or no.
I want to die, thinking about this day and night. Wondering if others feel this way.

yes, but not yet.. i have still a lot of things to accomplish in my short life like having kids and getting a well paid job, however i don't want to die being a very old man in order to not become a burden for my family

 

[Honda]

I think Ill reach somewhere big in life so no i dont want to die untill i witnessed the peak in life... but I'd rather live a short and exciting life rather than a long and dull one...

 

[userremoved]

buddy, please dont. I am willing to put my left testicle on the line, that you have much to offer in this world. Now thats a giant leap of faith right? Please, i like my balls.

No...but thanks for the concern anyways. I just needed time to cool off. I highly doubt I really have much to offer the world though. So far all I've done is eat up money and resources. Too bad T.I. isn't here, he would know what to do. I'm fine now though.

 

[Confuseddd]

No...but thanks for the concern anyways. I just needed time to cool off. I highly doubt I really have much to offer the world though. So far all I've done is eat up money and resources. Too bad T.I. isn't here, he would know what to do. I'm fine now though.

Try to become more goal orientated.. It is much more fullfilling when you accomplish things, no matter how big or small.

I made a goals list on notepad on my computer, and afew of these goals are

Haircut

Get a car

Get Highschool diploma


Lol some are simple others will take time but i feel great when i can take something off the list, and i add to it whenever there is something i want to do. Idk just suggesting a practice that might make you feel more self worth.

 

[userremoved]

Try to become more goal orientated.. It is much more fullfilling when you accomplish things, no matter how big or small.

I made a goals list on notepad on my computer, and afew of these goals are

Haircut

Get a car

Get Highschool diploma


Lol some are simple others will take time but i feel great when i can take something off the list, and i add to it whenever there is something i want to do. Idk just suggesting a practice that might make you feel more self worth.

In all honesty, thats what I've been doing. Whats got me down is not my lack of achievement in life but my inability to connect with other living breathing human beings. College life has made me painfully aware of that fact too. In person, I'm not the kinda individual that people just unconsciously want to be around. I have to go out of my way to connect with people and I see apprehension in their faces over something as simple as hanging out. This one group acts almost as if their hanging out with me as some kind of moral obligation, not because they genuinely enjoy my company. I just hate feeling like I'm a burden to everyone around me when all I want is some damn friends.

 

[Confuseddd]

In all honesty, thats what I've been doing. Whats got me down is not my lack of achievement in life but my inability to connect with other living breathing human beings. College life has made me painfully aware of that fact too. In person, I'm not the kinda individual that people just unconsciously want to be around. I have to go out of my way to connect with people and I see apprehension in their faces over something as simple as hanging out. This one group acts almost as if their hanging out with me as some kind of moral obligation, not because they genuinely enjoy my company. I just hate feeling like I'm a burden to everyone around me when all I want is some damn friends.

you took the emotion right out of my head. But you know what i think about it?

I know it is not much consolation but i would gladly hang out with you. I would not have any set of pre-requisites for you to fill to be my friend. If i think this way, out of the millions of people , there has to be others right?..

 

[userremoved]

I suppose so. Thanks btw.