slowmotiondaydream
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i think everyone here has that thought at the back of their mind telling them they want to die. i do. but im too scared to act upon it.. which makes me proud of myself
I am suicidal but I can't leave now until I prove to these people that I can be happy
and successful.
The only thing that keeps me going is the hope that things will change. If I ever think that things will always be like this, game over. I'd rather be dead than live like this for another day, let alone the potential five decades of the rest of my life. that's a terrible thought, for me at least.
No, death is not an alternative to life, it's the opposite of life. And irreversible at that. We'll all die sooner or later, I'm going to wait and see what life has in store while I'm here.
I've wanted to die for five years now. I would have killed myself already if I didn't fear pain or permanently handicapping myself somehow.
I just wondered... having seen the Law of Attraction movie and things like that...
When we think to ourselves "I want to die" over and over again, are we actually losing the life (liveliness) in us? It seems to me there's a constant battle between thoughts of wanting to die and the natural urge to live. And the tug of war goes on, either this way or that, and we remain almost at the same place we were years ago.
I just thought, what if instead of wanting to die we think "I want my troubles to end"? It's the same thing, isn't it? when we say we want to die, all we want is our troubles to end. So would this change of words release the rope from one end and the life side wins? I know it's too too philosophical and I may not even be able to walk my talk. But it was a nice thought and it made me feel better. I hope this state remains for a while![]()