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    Maybe we just want equality without fighting to get or keep it

    Maybe we should be anxious & avoidant Doesnt it always come down to the servant & master in relationships anyway? Dominance & submission Control & surrender As Annie Lennox says Sweet dreams are made of this Who am I to disagree Ive traveled the world And the seven seas Everybodys looking for...
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    Help

    My former BFF died in August ... a drug abuser who suffered greatly from mental illness...Her wake was in a closed casket as she d been found lying dead for days & had decomposed,,,This occurred 4 days after my favorite Aunts wake in the SAME room...This is the 2nd time someone Ive been very...
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    8 members 97 visitors online

    Im going to watch tv again Too voyeristic
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    Ever feel like

    Ever feel like you re having two different conversations When you talk to someone? The conversation you need. The conversation they need. Youre preoccupied and unavailable as are they. And you dominate one another by talking over each other No ones listening....a meeting of the minds hasnt...
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    Anyone on here....

    Anyone on here have appetite problems? I havent been eating very much and Im feeling weak and Ill. Im wishing I had an understanding friend or relative that could come take care of me for a while.. Everything overwhelms and stresses me out. Im in a dark scarey place right now and I dont know...
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    I want the result but I dont want to do the work to get it

    Can anyone identify with this? Im stuck in suspended animation. Inertia. W Why why why? I spend more time thinking and less time doing... So much weird. Im spoiled
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    Conditional happiness

    Why cant I stop making my happiness conditional on ideal circumstances I may never have? Its awful..I used to just go with it when I was younger before the anxiety became depression. My life has become a mere existance, a waiting room. Nothings gonna change if I stay like this.. Im just so...
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    Too much truth revealed...

    I have had many truths revealed to me this year in solace in reflection. The most difficult to swallow is that many of my problems are of my own making. Great strides of awareness bring forth the realiity of effort and change that must occur if I want my relationships and my life to be...
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    Wheres the pleasure/ joy part?

    Wheres the love? The pleasure? The joy? In this life Can I have some of the beautiful things like that in this lifetime For me ? Thats what I want to know.. Whats in this for me? I know it sounds awful .. I feel like ive been an island ,so alone, so long Filling the needs of others and...
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    Avoidance guilt

    Ive been avoiding a friend who had become ,in my eyes ,very needy and self centered.. The thought of interaction with her makes me nervous so id been putting distance between us for some time now and she kept pressing me for interaction. At which point I blew up on her and told her about the...
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    Exhausted but cant fall or stay asep

    I cant seem to fall or stay aslleep Im always tired and rarely feel rested I have drs appt monday Been off sleep meds a bout a year but slleep depravation and nocturnal cycles getting to me Any suggestions or thoughts Tried benedril Vallerian Melatonin Yoga Stretching Soft music Candlelight...
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    Love triangle

    I allowed myself to get pulled into a love triangle for a couple of years that obviously ended badly about a year ago. Recently the fella involved has been contacting me again. Unfortunately as pathetic as it is and I hate to admit I Developed strong feelings for the assh**e and often when he...
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    On empowerment -the 48 Laws of Power

    Has anyone read The 48 Laws of Power By Robert Greene? I highly recommend it for all on this site I started it and didnt finish it And I think its time to get back to it This book gives 48 specific instructions about how to obtain and preserve Power. It demonstrates through history the...
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    My viscious cycle of doom...freestyle association rant....

    Is it me? Do meds really work? Theyre good for making a drone out of you. And sometimes thats nice... It helps you to cope when Theres something actually something going on in life and you have a routine But Im unemployable right now so theres little structure or routine outside Homemaking...
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    Ugh

    Im trying so hard to care about anything or just get things done but this is awful. God i my hearts not in anything. I have to forse and push myself to do anything. Im so miserable and cranky. Thank god i found this site. Nobody wants to hear this shi it. And i dont get it im not usually...
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