Conditional happiness

[Whoopdeedoo]

Why cant I stop making my happiness conditional on ideal circumstances I may never have? Its awful..I used to just go with it when I was younger before the anxiety became depression. My life has become a mere existance, a waiting room. Nothings gonna change if I stay like this..
Im just so hurt and scared. I dont want to make myself subject to more pain
But shutting myself in isnt much better.
Ugh I pray this darkness passes and soon
Its unbearable. Im unconsolable
I want what I want or I want nothing
Everything else pales in comparison to what I want
And now I wont even try
Ugh sorry
Im miserable again

 

[Diend]

I guess this notion is biologically ingrained in us. No wait, its the movies and books.

 

[Fighter86]

Same here, I ll be happy one moment if something goes my way and have all these expectations built on that moment. And then get crush back down to earth when an event doesnt go my way. We cannot control the way people act, but we can control our reactions and seek out other solutions. What saddens me is how people are so self centered, they care only about themselves never others. No one cares about me, weather I am happy, sad or angry no one cares, except me.