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The Death Note Manga title sounds interesting.I like stories with layers and depth.What is the story about.The start of Up is moving and sad in parts.It moved me abit watching the lives of the couple being shown at the films beginning.The talking dogs were quite funny at times even though it was never explained how the explorer had invented the collar.The scenes of them serving food and drinks made me smile.Which parts of the film did you like.Up as film was not particularly violent and that was good.Lots of tv programmes,books and films rely on violence to get people interested.Its a shame really because it limits the choices available if violence does not interest you.

Death Note is a good manga, it's not violent, it's kinda philosophical. It's a good one for manga beginners to get in to. I'm not really in to violence in the media, I prefer to watch happy things. Up is good the start is so sad! But it's a great film Xx

Nice i have to have music every day, keeps me sane. Aaah nice the manga i'm reading just now is about 2 girls who are total opposites but then meet and become friends, and just the ups and downs they go through. It's a lot better than i make it sound hehe Xx

I'm sorry about your recurring memories - I can relate, sometimes I'll go through days on end thinking over one minor incident, it's not pleasant at all.

Village life - I like the fact that there are few people about, it makes going outside easier, and also the fact that I'm so close to the countryside, I can see fields from my window. The only bad thing is that it's difficult to get into the city if we need to for any reason (not that I can at the moment thanks to the agoraphobia) we have to rely on buses which are infrequent and frequently late. Do you live in an urban, sub-urban or rural area?

Favourite music is from Arena, Shadowland, Caamora, (those 3 are to do with Clive Nolan - who is my musical hero!) Sabaton, Freedom Call, Hammerfall, Sonata Arctica (early stuff, I don't like their more recent albums), Threshold, Skid Row, Guns N' Roses, Two Steps From Hell, Trans-Siberian Orchestra, Tchaikovsky, Shostakovich and much more! So we have Guns N' Roses in common.

Moving home was the biggest stressful event, much more so than getting married. Before that I lived at the edge of a large city, and when I met my husband, we spent time living between my home and his mother's home, that was a dreadfully stressful time as his mother is anything but easy to get along with. We moved to a village, so it was very different from what we were used to and to be honest I felt isolated and vulnerable, I think it's that which brought the agoraphobia back.

I'm glad you're better at calming yourself now. I know all about feeling self-conscious with people, it's awful! I'm sorry about your recurring memories. Are they to do with negative experiences?

I also like rock music, though I'm quite specific - I like hard rock and 80's "hair metal", I also love power metal, neo-prog rock, musicals and swing music along with some classical. What are some of your favourite bands/artists or composers?

Cool what have you been reading and watching? I had a family party for New Years but mostly watched movies away from people. It was good overall. It was better then other days.

Ive been drawing a lot of the human skeletal structure, using pen.

Nice i'll let you know what i think when i get round to watching it. Umm i can't really think of any fictional words right now... the words Dr Seuss makes up are always fun you? I don't read novels much but i read a lot of manga you? Xx

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Once we were on the towpath, I initially turned around in a panic, but he encouraged me to try a little harder and after a while it was like a switch had flipped and suddenly it was all so much easier. The next day we went on a long walk and had a picnic, it was all like a dream, felt so much better. I continued like that (since 2008) until the autumn of 2011, when my anxiety resurfaced, presumably down to the stress of moving home and getting married. Since then I have improved a little, but I am still very restricted.

Yes, I know what you mean about those things helping, music especially helps me. In some cases it even has a healing effect, curing me of headaches and giving me energy.

Speaking of music, what sort of music do you listen to, generally?

You're probably right about counselling. Though, I "click" with so few people I'd be unlikely to ever find one that's right for me lol. I'm sorry it was so emotionally difficult for you at first, but glad that it's helped you. How are you affected by your problems on a daily basis now?

When we were talking online my husband encouraged me to try going outside (at that point even going in the garden was difficult), because I felt like I wanted to not let him down I did try, harder than before and over months I could walk up the road, which wasn't much, but was difficult. When he came to visit me, we continued like that for a few weeks, then I reached my first big goal, seeing the canal towpath which I'd walked along frequently as a child... Continued in next post.

Yea, it sounds terrbile, luckily i don't have anything like that. I like the Graham Norton show when i hear it he's good at taking the mick out of anything hehe i don't really listen to much radio though. Ah yea i have Arriety on Sky Planner, so it was good? I started watching it with my mum and dad but they decided they didn't fancy it, i'll watch it another time Xx

Hi. I think you should check out the Chapman brothers. I like to draw in pen, of different things. Right now, I am interested in biology. I know of most of the artists you have mentioned and yes I do admire thier paintings.

Yes, I can still go in the garden and I can go on walks around the local fields (well, three of them at the moment, since my agoraphobia returned in December 2011 - I was fine for a few years before that.) I'm glad counselling helped you. I had a counselor for a while, but it didn't help me in the slightest. It was my husband that got me over the agoraphobia initially, but now that it's come back it's harder to conquer again.

The vegetarian diet is very varied, especially if you're willing to experiment. I tend to enjoy spicy foods and anything with couscous or rice. I use soya mince to replace meat in things like lasagna or bolognese, and butter beans are great in casseroles.

Was sort of things did your cat get up to.Im not much of a party person, so I just stayed at home at new years,reading and watching films.It was okay.How was your new years.

That's cool I like cats as well and used to have one as a kid. It died at 21 but it had a long life for a cat. How was your New Year's?

I am not very close to my uncle, but I used to chat with him and had a great time around him. I worry about my weight because I gained 15-17 pounds over the last 2 years and so I had to diet to lose them. About winter, I like the fact that it's dark and cold so people don't go out a lot, which means I don't have to see many people outside (I get nervous around lots of people). I also like winter because I don't have to worry about fashion as much. I have limited amount of clothes, and in the summer, I feel a lot of pressure to look good. I have to worry about sweat stains, body odor, and many other things. But in the winter, I don't worry so much; I don't sweat much in the cold, my body odor isn't as strong, and most importantly, I don't have to worry much about fashion. When I go out, I just put on a sweater, some pants, and that's it. Everybody is so cold that they probably won't notice what I'm wearing, even if I'm wearing a bad shirt underneath the sweater. I hope this makes sense.

Hullo, Yes, we're both vegetarians (and so is our dog lol). He's been a vegetarian for 8 years, and I've been vegetarian for 5 years. And both of us are healthier since being vegetarian than we were before... Neither of us has had a cold for over 3 years for example.

I suffer with agoraphobia and social phobia. My social phobia doesn't bother me much since I basically don't interact with anyone at all other than my husband and occasional family visits. But when I have had to interact with people it's awful... I can barely speak to my husband's family, and I feel anxious with them, sometimes I just have to leave the room to get away from them when they visit.

What about you? How are you affected by anxiety?

I like xmas, it's one of my favorite holidays. I also like winter, my favorite season. But I don't like family gatherings, especially with my dad's relatives - I find them stressful. Normally, I would diet, but on xmas, I treated myself to a piece of chocolate desert. Overall, I think I must have lost some pounds because I finally reached my goal! overall, xmas was ok. My uncle died before christmas and will be laid to rest this saturday.

That's a shame that your brother had to work, no one should have to work on christmas day. My christmas day was alright though i wasn't very well and i haven't felt great since. We just had the usual christmas stuff, it was nice i just watched Shrek, it was good though. I'm back at work now, christmas feels like so long ago! Xx

Glad you had a nice, quiet Christmas. No, we didn't have any of our fruits or vegetables left to cook, but I made a very tasty (vegetarian) meal. It was just a pity that the weather here has been mild and rainy... It just doesn't feel "Christmas-y" without ice, frost or snow lol.