I suppose I'm trying to find ways to improve my confidence, and taking up acting, like studying to become a chef, are just ways to improve myself, and also it should help to widen my social circle, although I don't have much of a circle to speak of at the moment. But to be honest with you though MC, I'm still feeling really down at the moment. So I think the only way I'm going to make a success of my life right now, and it's kind of a cliche thing to say, but I'm going to have to fake it till I make it. There are days when I think what's the point in even trying, but I have wasted so many years of my life procrastinating and running myself down like that. If anything, I should be cheering myself on to succeed in life, because after all, the only person who can really help you is yourself. So what Ive decided to do now, each day I am going to say positive things to myself, even if I don't believe them just yet. After all, thinking negatively for so long hasn't done me any favours.