Falkor

( my post was too long too )

Still i am trying to take life in goals, step by step, so that i dont get too overwhelmed ever. BDD is the worst feeling , because you feel just so much worse then other people , and the worst part about it is you cant even tell if its just in your head because you really do FEEL like you are worse when you look in the mirror... i always look in the mirror every day , i cant help it, it is like OCD to me .

alright , i have done some research on assburgers lol. . and i show some symptoms of it although these symptons could also just be SA and AvPd and BDD , (I think i have all three : /) i think my depression is caused by my BDD too be honest. . I feel so much worse then everyone around me it is unbearable at times. I feel a huge emptyness in me occasionally and it makes me always question what the purpose to life is. I think alot about life and what we are here for , if we are even here for anything , i like philosophy alot. I have come to the conclusion that we make our own individual purpose in life, and for me what i want to do , (very similar to you !!!) is help people, i really want to become a psychologist one day, and i feel like i can do it. I always keep the fire inside i try never to lose hope even when i am feeing empty inside because i dont know how to stop those feelings. sometimes a sad song is all it takes and i feel like crying.

Hi sweetie, well the fact that you have done so much preforming with SA means that you can overcome it, like the awesome Kate Bush. Don't ever stop fighting it! and yeah i would die to see her preform again like a come-back tour...i have thought of that too.

hey . . I have been reading your posts flowrgirlie
And im thinking what if you had depression ? it sounds like you might be suffering from depression , because you speak of emptyness and that is exactly how i get sometimes. it was a horrible feeling , and im a man but i still cried occasionally. i hope you feel better soon

Hi! im doing ok thank you for asking.
I am sure you have heard this before but only because its true
But it is hard to believe a girl as pretty as you could have SA !
Although i know it is not about what others think it is about what you think
Also i have a question , i remember reading somewhere on here you have aspergers , well i am wondering how i would be able to tell if i had that. I have been thinking i might for a long time now. Any thing you could offer would be appreciated. Thanks

lol we are on a first name basis ( Kate Bush and I) Oh btw I have never done Karaoke I love to sign but not infront of people it.... sux to be me. Hope you have fun!!

Awe hey! I am doing Ok. No plans for the weekend for me. Typical. Oh yeah...Yes, I ment to Kate Bush we were chatting about her and you asked me if she had SA and I read soon after that she does. Thought that might help you to know. It might also have something to do with why she only did one tour in her career I imagine that would have been extremely difficult for her.
Glad you're back and doing better! **Hugggsss*

Wow! One of your youtube clips has been viewed over 18000 times!! - you're so fluent in English that it came as a surprise to me to see you speaking Dutch

Hey sweetie~ glad ur feeling better. I read about Kate, and yes she does have SA too. Keep on singing it's beautiful.

no problem, thanx for accepting. i'm in a bit of a rut, things not going well at the moment actually. i hope things are well with you...

Hello Flowergirlie

Thank you for adding me. Im glad to meet you here and i wanna say u are amazing soul, beautiful inside and outside. And i hope by you is everything fine. By me isnt but weekend wasnt bad too not so good. I like this comment of DJ too this is actually what i feel miss the most what he wrote to me. But is very hard with my feelings inside what are killing me i know i just cant do it with those negative view on world. Take care and thank you Hugzz

This is good, you are sounding positive again. Keep it up!

thank you all so much for the positive comments, I don't have to go to the mental hospital, Because I said I will prove myself to keep my head up , I was like giving up, But now I will fight to keep going on. I will get my life back on track, anyhow.
Although it will be a hard struggle with SA, I will do it Somehow!!
Thank you all, spw is a great place full of nice people
And I hope everything works well for you guys too!!!

Xx Flowerygirl

Ja, het gaat goed met mij en met jou?

done that for you now

I think I speak for everyone in saying that we all really care about how you are feeling, we all want you to feel better.

I hope the hospital works out Saskia, you will be missed here!

Hey Girlie
I was reading ur post about recent anxiety attacks and got worried about u. I sure hope you get the help you need to feel better ur sucha a wonderful person who deserves happiness.

Be strong*hugs*

Saskia, everything will be OK. You have wonderful qualities and in time you will overcome your anxiety problems, so keep up the fight! You are very inspiring to many of us here and we like you A LOT!!
*Big bunch of flowers* <<< for Flowergirlie

Hi

I hope things turn out all right for you .

Hey Saskia!! Hope things go better!! My idea was just about singing songs with inspirational message, and you are basically doing that already... So I hope it didn't have anything to do with it? (I feel a bit guilty now..) Anyway, really wishing you to get better cause you are a wonderful person and really wish you well!!