Ah don't know... just this empty, f**ked shell o' ma former self. :crying
When's the last time you were genuniely happy, eh? That what ah've been askin' masel', lately. :sad:
Y'know yer depressed as f**k when yer lookin' up the dictionary definition o' "happiness" - that's joke, obviously. But it gives some insight intae ma current emotionally state, ah think? Humour is basically ma way of copin' an' maskin' ma problems, and resentments towards ma family.
That, and ah cannae afford heroine, which would dae the same thing, really... Ah think ah've internalise too much emotional shite over the years, it's become harder tae talk aboot. And the fact ah get big laughs for merely speakin' ma mind... makes me wonder:
"What's the f**kin' point?!" Ah love being seen as f**kin' family comedian - long may it continue, eh? :kickingmyself:
If life's a joke, then death must be punchline! God's got a f**kin' great sense o' humour doesn't he, eh? A right effin' laugh! Sorry...
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