How are you feeling?

MikeyC

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I am lonely.

This breakdown of the relationship with Fiona has made me yearn for more like that, but I can't. I believe I'm ready for a relationship with a nice girl, as I have lots of love to give, but it takes more than that to be a good partner, and I struggle to feel that I have all those qualities.

It's a terrible feeling, loneliness. I want to be heard. I want to be loved and accepted. I feel none of these things are happening. I feel used. I feel discarded.

Oh, maybe some ice cream will fix this.
 

upndwn

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What do you think caused the depression recently?

I think it was a combination of my medication starting to have a diminished effect (I've been on the maximum dosage for a couple of years now so I think my body has built up a resistance) and some negative developments at work. I also lost both my parents last year and I think I have been suppressing my grief and frustration, partially because of the numbing effect of my medication. Anyway, I'm not really looking forward to going back to work which is a pity because I used to love what I did there, but recent developments have me reconsidering my dedication.
 

MikeyC

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I think it was a combination of my medication starting to have a diminished effect (I've been on the maximum dosage for a couple of years now so I think my body has built up a resistance) and some negative developments at work. I also lost both my parents last year and I think I have been suppressing my grief and frustration, partially because of the numbing effect of my medication. Anyway, I'm not really looking forward to going back to work which is a pity because I used to love what I did there, but recent developments have me reconsidering my dedication.
Events outside the workplace can affect how you perform within it. Maybe the months off will do you some good to clear your head and release the emotions of losing your parents and the diminished effect of the medication.

Try to keep yourself busy with things during your time off. It doesn't matter what it is, but something is better than nothing.
 

upndwn

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Events outside the workplace can affect how you perform within it. Maybe the months off will do you some good to clear your head and release the emotions of losing your parents and the diminished effect of the medication.

Try to keep yourself busy with things during your time off. It doesn't matter what it is, but something is better than nothing.

Yeah I'm trying my best to keep occupied, but it's hard since most of my friends are to busy to really hang out, so I'm mostly alone which probably is the worst thing for me right now. But I'm trying really hard to be positive, I really am.

Maybe I should have some Ice cream as well. Sugary self medication always seems to do wonders doesn't it :p
 

MikeyC

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Yeah I'm trying my best to keep occupied, but it's hard since most of my friends are to busy to really hang out, so I'm mostly alone which probably is the worst thing for me right now. But I'm trying really hard to be positive, I really am.

Maybe I should have some Ice cream as well. Sugary self medication always seems to do wonders doesn't it :p
You can go and do things on your own. Depending on your financial situation, there are plenty of things you can do solo.

Ice cream is good. No wonder girls eat tubs of it when they're crying. :)
 

upndwn

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You can go and do things on your own. Depending on your financial situation, there are plenty of things you can do solo.

Ice cream is good. No wonder girls eat tubs of it when they're crying. :)

I'm prone to eating tubs of the stuff when I'm crying to, and I'm a guy. I guess when it comes to the miracle of ice cream gender is not an issue :D
 

springk

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When i look at world around me , i see people who are so sure of themselves, at least more than me. I want to change things but i dont do anything. I am so afraid.
Afraid of so many things.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
When i look at world around me , i see people who are so sure of themselves, at least more than me. I want to change things but i dont do anything. I am so afraid.
Afraid of so many things.

Aye, same here, darlin'.

But then am scared of lots of everything. :giggle:
 

MBinMN

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Im feeling relieved and also regretful..
Returned home from a annual camping event with my husband. Its high anxiety ridden event for me. Mostly his friends a couple people that are friendly to me but not much. Usually I only go for 4 days and this time I went for 7. ( Sunday - Sunday) Mistake! By Wednesday all I wanted to do was stay and hide in the camper. I was having panic attacks and in tears and I could tell my husband was just annoyed that once again my issues were affecting him. :( I feel so terrible he didn't have as good a time as he should have. :kickingmyself:
 

neardeath

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Im feeling relieved and also regretful..
Returned home from a annual camping event with my husband. Its high anxiety ridden event for me. Mostly his friends a couple people that are friendly to me but not much. Usually I only go for 4 days and this time I went for 7. ( Sunday - Sunday) Mistake! By Wednesday all I wanted to do was stay and hide in the camper. I was having panic attacks and in tears and I could tell my husband was just annoyed that once again my issues were affecting him. :( I feel so terrible he didn't have as good a time as he should have. :kickingmyself:

Glad you are back. I used to attend some group camp outs and I would just hide out and do my own thing. A week-long trip? That's tough. Don't blame yourself, you have an illness!
 

this_portrait

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Still feel congested, though now I can add an itchy throat to my problems. No idea how I'm going to get through the dentist tomorrow. I'm also feeling really impatient, and have been for a while now.
 

MikeyC

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Im feeling relieved and also regretful..
Returned home from a annual camping event with my husband. Its high anxiety ridden event for me. Mostly his friends a couple people that are friendly to me but not much. Usually I only go for 4 days and this time I went for 7. ( Sunday - Sunday) Mistake! By Wednesday all I wanted to do was stay and hide in the camper. I was having panic attacks and in tears and I could tell my husband was just annoyed that once again my issues were affecting him. :( I feel so terrible he didn't have as good a time as he should have. :kickingmyself:
I'm sorry. Have you spoken to your husband about this since being back?
 
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