Ugh, I'm more stressed than I'd like to be, I just want this month to be over already. I'm still not all set for school yet, I'm not sure if I registered or not, I'm not sure if my financial aid is on track for where it is supposed to be, I don't get why the online waiver for health insurance isn't working, unless I'm not registered yet, ot haven't paid, in which I have to wait for financial aid, which every says estimated, but estimated the exact amount I sent in to accept. I have some register/orientation thing for school in a few weeks, I still haven't received the information I was told I would get for it yet. I don't know if I'll get an ID there, I don't know what I am supposed to do before I go, or until after I go. I don't know what I should be doing now. I don't know what books to buy, I don't know where to buying them. I need to go to my physical in a few weeks to get my medical approved, I don't know if I have wait for that. But the medicinal insurance waiver is due like 3 days after that is due to be submitted, and what if it still won't let me do it online? Where is ANYTHING on campus. I don't know where any of the buildings are, I don't have a map. I don't want to call, or ask, or seek out and look stupid for not knowing what I'm doing, even though I don't. How am I going to survive at a new school, one where I know people from high school. I'm losing whatever confidence I had gained I fear, I'm spending too much my time by myself. I need to find a job somehow, I need to ask for applications, I need to call them on the phone, go to interviews, work with people. I need to meet new people. I wish I could have the lowered inhibitions of drunkenness while doing everything above. I need to get into the groove of living on my own. I want everything settled, I want a routine. I don't like so many things up in the air and going on at once. I don't like not knowing. I just want this month to be over.