I have been socializing.
Drained, tired, paranoid. Feeling a little unhappy.
I will never understand what it is about me that makes people feel uncomfortable. People can sense my discomfort - and that makes me feel bad.
I am getting that old feeling that people really hate me.
Bravo for socializing Kiakaha. *applauds*
I really don't know where to find the reason why people would feel like that around you. I wouldn't. I would just say I completely understand where you're coming from. I have to admit I have the same fear in my head, that I make people uncomfortable by my awkwardness and I was just thinking today that I might be not a fun person to hang out with, cuz I'm so fearful so I have a forced smile, or something.
Well, you know, you could always put on a smile more throughout the days, I know it's hard when you don't feel like it, but it always makes people smile too.
And you know, for me the reason is, is that I have a lot of negative emotion, pain and sadness (don't know why), so that's a reason I think people don't like being around me because I might give off a vibe that I'm not optimistic enough so I'm not fun because I'm in deep thoughts and can't open my eyes to fun sometimes, it really *****.
But hey, anyways, I LOVE your posts here, I even get inspired by your words, you are very intelligent and have so many thoughts I haven't been thinking about yet about SA, so clever man, you can always inspire people

Maybe you should use that trick during conversations
