How are you feeling?

planemo

planemo

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Just can't shake off this feeling of dread and inner insecurity. Not sure what's making me feel like this. :confused:
 
Falkor

Falkor

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I'm all right. Just need to tell myself it'll be all okay.
Today I had a good day at school... So I should be proud:)

I'm just never happy to my self :$

My demon thoughts are just being silly, they tell myself
"you will faill at school'' ''You will lose the best things in your life''
Isn't that the scariest thought ever? I really don't wanna think like this.
It's just me being scared.... I just told myself
'' This week I will fight... fight... fight.... that's the spirit!''
I will show people I am a strong girl, there's faith i can proof
I do i do i do.

I just always need to convince myself... That I can really hang in the time
It's rough.. But I CAN.. I proofed it... It's only weird to say it now. ::eek::
I've gone from a scared mouse to a person back on track in life.
This is just only the beginning... Everything will get better and better...
<3
 
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Silatuyok

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Clara001 said:
I'm done. This was the worst day of my life. I talked with the guy I liked and realized we have NOTHING in common, he's the total opposite of me. I have nothing in common with all of the people at my college, which is a college just for law students and therefore people here are too ambicious, positive, social and happy for me. I'm done with hoping things will get better, because they won't. There's nothing left for me. I'm pissed and disappointed at the same time, I've never felt this way before. I've really given up this time. I just have to wait until all the feelings go away and I reach the state of apathy. I don't want to care about anything and I think I'm getting close to that. I don't want to think, feel, talk, anything. Maybe I should just stop talking. I should stop doing everything until my mother gets so pissed at me she kills herself (yes, that's what she does when I'm not pretending to be okay - she threatens to commit suicide). And then I still won't feel anything because I'll be so f*cked up I won't even notice she's gone. And I'll just stay in my room and do absolutely nothing until I die of dehydration or suicide. Seriously, f*ck everybody and everyone, including me. I'm sick of hoping and waiting for something good to happen. It never will.
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The point where I hit apathy is the point where things always start feeling better. Hang in there.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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Clara001 said:
I'm done. This was the worst day of my life. I talked with the guy I liked and realized we have NOTHING in common, he's the total opposite of me. I have nothing in common with all of the people at my college, which is a college just for law students and therefore people here are too ambicious, positive, social and happy for me. I'm done with hoping things will get better, because they won't. There's nothing left for me. I'm pissed and disappointed at the same time, I've never felt this way before. I've really given up this time. I just have to wait until all the feelings go away and I reach the state of apathy. I don't want to care about anything and I think I'm getting close to that. I don't want to think, feel, talk, anything. Maybe I should just stop talking. I should stop doing everything until my mother gets so pissed at me she kills herself (yes, that's what she does when I'm not pretending to be okay - she threatens to commit suicide). And then I still won't feel anything because I'll be so f*cked up I won't even notice she's gone. And I'll just stay in my room and do absolutely nothing until I die of dehydration or suicide. Seriously, f*ck everybody and everyone, including me. I'm sick of hoping and waiting for something good to happen. It never will.
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Hang in there, Clara. I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch but things will look up. I agree with Sweet Marie that the point of complete apathy is when you've hit the bottom and the only way is up. You will find that'll be the case, too.

I'll be around if you want somebody to talk to.

Saskia said:
I'm all right. Just need to tell myself it'll be all okay.
Today I had a good day at school... So I should be proud:)

I'm just never happy to my self :$

My demon thoughts are just being silly, they tell myself
"you will faill at school'' ''You will lose the best things in your life''
Isn't that the scariest thought ever? I really don't wanna think like this.
It's just me being scared.... I just told myself
'' This week I will fight... fight... fight.... that's the spirit!''
I will show people I am a strong girl, there's faith i can proof
I do i do i do.

I just always need to convince myself... That I can really hang in the time
It's rough.. But I CAN.. I proofed it... It's only weird to say it now. ::eek::
I've gone from a scared mouse to a person back on track in life.
This is just only the beginning... Everything will get better and better...
<3
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That's so good! I'm glad you've got a great, positive mindset. It's definitely not easy having very degrading thoughts, as I have, but the fact you want to get better is very awesome and I am proud of you. :)

planemo said:
Pathetic...
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Oh, no. Why?
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Strangely full of energy. Almost hyper, and why I have no idea. I'm never hyper! Really, very rarely do I ever get hyper. Just before I got here I was pretty anxious and depressed, and now for the last hour I've been happy and hyper. This is weird, but I'm gonna enjoy it. :D
 
MrJones

MrJones

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MikeyC said:
Okay, his voice is alright, I'll give you that. Hey, it's your fantasy, so that's great.

As long as you can accept that, one day, this is my fantasy!
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if you're interested, there are Swedish girls on this forum itself.

Time to make your fantasy come true, Romeo ;)


I don't think Alan Rickman is registered here, though, but I don't know.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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MrJones said:
if you're interested, there are Swedish girls on this forum itself.

Time to make your fantasy come true, Romeo ;)
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Yeah, like that'll ever happen! I'll just remain in Fantasy Land. :)

Anyway, I feel accomplished today. I have booked in for my very first therapy session for Friday. I'm nervous, anxious, upset, and everything else about it.
 
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Silatuyok

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MikeyC said:
Anyway, I feel accomplished today. I have booked in for my very first therapy session for Friday. I'm nervous, anxious, upset, and everything else about it.
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Congrats! I'm sure you'll let us know how it goes, right? Starting new therapy is always a really nervous/hopeful/nervewracking time for me.
 
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