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Agent_Violet

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PipsMcClawski said:
Well dont worry, depression works wonders on repressing sexual desires. I'm half the man I used to be. *starts singing Stone Temple Pilots song*
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:eek: say it isn't so! :(

You hear that sound? yeah, that's women all over the world in mourning about depression zapping sexual desire. that in itself is a most depressing thought
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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PipsMcClawski said:
Well dont worry, depression works wonders on repressing sexual desires. I'm half the man I used to be. *starts singing Stone Temple Pilots song*
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Actually, it's quite the opposite for me. Instead of repressing them, they're being amplified. Ahhh... what I would do to have someone who I could hold and kiss and other things, to receive love as much as I give it. Oh well, that won't be happening for a long time, maybe ever. Besides the fact that I would be a horrible boyfriend, most females don't seem to be interested in me. Well, I'm probably not ready for a girlfriend anyway, so... meh. *rant of depression now over*
 
Dead_on_Arrival

Dead_on_Arrival

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PipsMcClawski said:
It took me years to figure out what was wrong with me. I joined the military thinking I could run from my problems with people in school. Left the country thinking it was Americans. Changed religions twice thinking maybe I needed God. Then I eventually found out like two years ago it was all me. No one was responsible for my situation but me alone. Im just now seeing a therapist, but looking at all I have to do to be a different person, it's all pretty overwhelming. People say "well youve got you're whole life to live, start changing now!". Well I am, but you gotta think, I've spent the majority of my life thinking a certain way, no change is going to happen "now". It'll probably take years maybe even a decade to rewire myself and thats only if I stick with it.
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Apart from the Americans bit and the religeous bit, are you me?
I have just read a mini monologue of my life.
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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cesgrandsyeux said:
Awww :(
I doubt you'd make a horrible boyfriend.
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Well, not having a job or money tends to put those thoughts in my head. To me, if you don't have a stable income, then you shouldn't be dating because no girl will ever like a man without some money to his name. Now, I'm not saying that money is the most important thing to a woman, but I am saying that it has some level of importance. Also, a relationship requires love and creativity and I can't give love nor am I creative, so she'll get bored and leave pretty quickly.
Agent_Violet said:
nah ...I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I exposed you to such sexually voracious feminine types! The horror! No...we need to keep you safe from such debauchery.

::p:
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How about me, then? I can handle whatever they can throw at me:cool:! Besides, friends don't let friends stay lonely!
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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cesgrandsyeux said:
Hmmm. Well, if I wasn't earning, money would be an issue, but..... I don't know. I hate those girls that expect the guy to pay all the time. Earn your money and buy your own ****ing ****. It's really not important if a guy is a millionaire or not. What, am I looking for presents everyday? Nooo.

You can't give love? Are you an android?
HA, creativity? There's no set criteria for what women like, really. Just like men though, we don't like extremes. I'd say that's basically it.
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My view on love is distorted, so my ideas don't hold much water.

I can't give love because I don't feel any love within me; I feel hollow inside, like there's nothing there except my anger and sadness. So, technically, yes, I am a robot. I'd like to get a job, but not having a job before kinda makes employers hesitant to hire you.

Arrrghhh..... I don't know what I'm talking about anymore! That's why part of me wants to stop having crushes and just give up on relationships! I don't understand love and what it means to be loved "in that way".
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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cesgrandsyeux said:
Hmm,well, where have you applied to?
You will soon, don't worry. I reckon if you try hard enough, and you really want it, you do experience 'that' kind of love at some point in your life.
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Well, I've applied to the grocery store nearby and I keep tabs on the job positions available on campus. I'm even considering applying at the nearby library, but I'm too much of a coward to do it. Maybe that's the problem: I'm a coward.

Ahh, my bright-eyed friend, you have so much hope for me and for that I thank you:). Right now, I'm caught in the hands of despair, but I'll be free eventually. As for experiencing "that kind of love," even on my best days, I'm still convinced that no girl is or should be attracted to me, so I believe that, if it ever happens, I'll experience it during my later years, like my 30s or 40s. I just can't see a reason why anyone should be; there's nothing positive or worth anything to my name and I can't give her anything. You're putting up with my whining; you must be very strong in mind in order to do that.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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I am oscillating towards the: "this is so good can it be real?" from the: "this is so bad can it be real?"

I call it the dream- nightmare oscillation index. A bit like El Nina.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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telepathine said:
we had a small earthquake here about 15 minutes ago. i didn't even feel it. i'm bummed.

i was just stepping out of the sweet shop and i noticed that several people on the sidewalk looked startled. a guy i passed asked me if i felt the earthquake, and i was all like, what earthquake? :p he said the building he was leaning up against shook like crazy. i'm a california n00b, i'll never get used to earthquakes -- how did i miss it? grr. i think the small ones are exciting!
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The small ones are exciting. It's the big ones you Californians have to watch out for - and the last I heard, you're all very overdue.
 
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