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suhaila

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There's nothing great about having a panic attack, but in my opinion, the worst aspect is the fear of running out of my medication right when an attack strikes. Panicking about running out of my pills has happened occasionally. Instead of keeping all of my pills in just one location, I usually keep a few in all of my purses and in various drawers throughout my room.

You never know when an attack will strike. Sometimes, just the thought of knowing my medication is in my purse and it’s there for me in case I have a panic attack is so immensely comforting and calming, that I can actually feel my anxiety decreasing.
 
Lexington

Lexington

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My worst fear is being too afraid in the moment to stand up and say what needs to be said eg. standing up to a bully.Then self-recriminations afterwards.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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I never took pills for my panic attacks. When I knew they wouldn't kill me they lost their power.
 
WeirdyMcGee

WeirdyMcGee

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1) people attacking me without any provocation -- it's happened before; so I know it's possible.

2) people seeing me the way I see myself and hating me and wanting me dead for being so hideous.
 
BlackPuma

BlackPuma

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suhaila said:
There's nothing great about having a panic attack, but in my opinion, the worst aspect is the fear of running out of my medication right when an attack strikes. Panicking about running out of my pills has happened occasionally. Instead of keeping all of my pills in just one location, I usually keep a few in all of my purses and in various drawers throughout my room.

You never know when an attack will strike. Sometimes, just the thought of knowing my medication is in my purse and it’s there for me in case I have a panic attack is so immensely comforting and calming, that I can actually feel my anxiety decreasing.
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I don't have to take pills for anything immediate, but if I would probably do that same thing. Perhaps even mount a pill dispenser on the wall or something - always in sight and never too much out of reach.
 
Iluv

Iluv

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I fear rejection, failure and violence.
Rejection came from me being rejected a couple of times. Friendship, dating & job wise.
Failure came from the fear of not being able to accomplish something. People used to tell me I will become nothing of myself but a pointless being.
Violence came from my surroundings.
 
Section_31

Section_31

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i fear losing what little i have that i hold dear in my life. My wife for a huge start. Without her i dont know what kind of person i would be. I need her. without her im nothing.

Fear of never being a real independent adult. this thought both depresses and angers me.

Fear that my mother may try to come back into my life.

fear that im not a good person.

fear of the future.
 
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mad2rix

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1. Not being able to stand up to myself or speak up
2. Concerned with bumping into my "enemies" from school
3. Rejection
 
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SelfHater

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So many good ones.

LOL I got shy bladder, any public bathroom is avoided at all costs. Let alone those old buildings (local farm show complex) with a double sided pee trough. Nothing like standing there with it hanging out with another dude in front of you wondering why you are just standing there.

As for hiding pills. I worked in mobile service repair. I would even hide pills in customers equipment particularly if they were a few hundred miles away from home. I was always afraid that I would get an unexpected over night call and not have enough pills on me. Nothing like being by yourself a few states over having panic attacks.
 
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