knowledgeofself
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and its reminded me why I am so useless with my emotions and how I am so emotionally volatile. I kind of fell for this girl because we share so much in common in terms of views and opinions and stuff, i've never met her, i've been talking with her over the web, she's pretty much perfect, I have spoken to a lot of people through forums but never met someone who I get along with so well. but every single time I am waiting for her message when it takes too long I start immediately worrying. I go over everything negative she could be thinking about me.
I couldn't sleep the other day when she didn't reply, I felt sick in my stomach, my pulse and heart was all disrupted and I felt like crying, I was depressed along with feeling angry. I wanted to hit the bottle. I go through this every time someone who I love doesn't respond to me as quickly or diligently as I am with them. it reminded me of when I was 17 and I loved a girl who didn't feel the same way, or my ex girlfriend a few years later. I feel like I can't ever have a loving relationship with someone because all this pain I put myself through is too much to bear.
I couldn't sleep the other day when she didn't reply, I felt sick in my stomach, my pulse and heart was all disrupted and I felt like crying, I was depressed along with feeling angry. I wanted to hit the bottle. I go through this every time someone who I love doesn't respond to me as quickly or diligently as I am with them. it reminded me of when I was 17 and I loved a girl who didn't feel the same way, or my ex girlfriend a few years later. I feel like I can't ever have a loving relationship with someone because all this pain I put myself through is too much to bear.