I feel like there is a skill set that i simply missed out on. I sometimes feel like giving up forever. I want someone to tell me its going to be ok. i am lonely. The thought of never being loved by a girl again is unbearable. i feel empty. sometimes i think i am too dumb to function in society. complaining makes me feel helpless. i am not afraid to die i am afraid of not living, the numbness, i am terrified of wasting the remainder of my youth (i am 25) i want to live. vague fear rules my life. i am ashamed to be depressed. i am lazy at times. i can try harder. my fear of failure prevents me from attempting anything. i am selfish at times. i wallow is self pity. i am drinking way too much lately. i think i am boring. i lack real friends. i vaguely wish for a zombie Apocalypse a restart button.