In my thinking, I constantly find myself running into the same dead end. I'll have moments where I will have a sort of epiphany or a reminder of a previously realized effective mentality, like today when looking at my hair. I have long hair, but am starting to bald pretty prominently in the front, and I keep going back and forth in my head what to do. On the one hand it looks stupid now, but I am attached to it and worry I would dumb bald. So I will stare in the mirror looking at, trying to will it to grow or completely fall out so I don't have to do anything. 
The "aha!" moment comes when I realize at the end of the day, how I look really doesn't matter. It's just not a big deal like am making out to be. If I shave it all an act like its no big deal, than it won't be, it's that simple. From there though, I begin to ask myself what does matter though, and what is important. 
It's at that point I hit the same dead end. And it undermines all my healthy or productive mentalities and philosophies. It's hard for me to accept that something like my hairstyle doesn't matter when I do not have a concrete idea of what I think does matter. While I know the hair issue in particular is not significant either way, but its indicative of a larger issue the reaches to nearly every aspect of my life. I've always held to the idea that it's not what you do, but how you do it, and for a while now I have been doing things aimlessly and arbitrarily. I try to include structure and purpose and intention to my actions, but deep deep down there is nothing driving me one way or another.