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Starry

Starry

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MikeyC said:
A great day that you can spend outside can lift a mood. I know it does for me when it's a perfect day and I can put my iPod in and go for walks. :)
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Indeed! ^_^

However, today has made me feel worse... My husband decided to get me to focus on the agoraphobia more so made me walk in a lane and up a hill... It was only brief - a few minutes - but I had a severe panic attack... My chest hurt very badly because I was breathing so heavily, my stomach hurt and I felt sick, I tried to run back down the hill at one point, but that made me feel worse, so I turned back around and ran back up... When I finally got back to a "safe" field my legs were trembling so much I thought they'd give way and I was forcing myself to hold back tears... I hate agoraphobia. *Sigh*
 
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Nathália

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Starry said:
Indeed! ^_^

However, today has made me feel worse... My husband decided to get me to focus on the agoraphobia more so made me walk in a lane and up a hill... It was only brief - a few minutes - but I had a severe panic attack... My chest hurt very badly because I was breathing so heavily, my stomach hurt and I felt sick, I tried to run back down the hill at one point, but that made me feel worse, so I turned back around and ran back up... When I finally got back to a "safe" field my legs were trembling so much I thought they'd give way and I was forcing myself to hold back tears... I hate agoraphobia. *Sigh*
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::(: Do you know what your particular agoraphobic fear is? I know Starry, it is terrible.
 
Starry

Starry

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Beleza said:
::(: Do you know what your particular agoraphobic fear is? I know Starry, it is terrible.
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Not really, the agoraphobia started when my anxiety got worse when I was around 13/14... The anxiety triggered psychogenic dizziness, which initially affected me in attacks, but gradually became continual... Because of feeling dizzy all the time, I became scared to go out and corridors and enclosed spaces, as well as very wide open spaces were the worst for making me feel scared... I think because I feel trapped in them... In a corridor, you have to continue to the end to escape it, in a wide open space you have to get to the edge to escape... But it could just be that my anxiety was much worse at school and schools have long corridors, as well as the courtyard which was a wide open space, filled with people and bullies... And so I've latched onto it...

I conquered my agoraphobia when I was 22, but it returned again last winter... I am much better off now than I was in January... Then I panicked just walking into the field over the road and the orchard joined onto it... Now I'm fine in all the fields, but as soon as I step foot in a lane I get anxious, since it's a little like a corridor, I suppose...

It's always the dizziness which gets me first - I feel dizzy, then like I'm floating or falling and like I'm going to faint and then all the other panic attack symptoms kick in. (Although, thankfully, I only get dizzy when I'm anxious now... Before I conquered the agoraphobia it was continual, as I said.)
 
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Nathália

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Starry said:
Not really, the agoraphobia started when my anxiety got worse when I was around 13/14... The anxiety triggered psychogenic dizziness, which initially affected me in attacks, but gradually became continual... Because of feeling dizzy all the time, I became scared to go out and corridors and enclosed spaces, as well as very wide open spaces were the worst for making me feel scared... I think because I feel trapped in them... In a corridor, you have to continue to the end to escape it, in a wide open space you have to get to the edge to escape... But it could just be that my anxiety was much worse at school and schools have long corridors, as well as the courtyard which was a wide open space, filled with people and bullies... And so I've latched onto it...

I conquered my agoraphobia when I was 22, but it returned again last winter... I am much better off now than I was in January... Then I panicked just walking into the field over the road and the orchard joined onto it... Now I'm fine in all the fields, but as soon as I step foot in a lane I get anxious, since it's a little like a corridor, I suppose...

It's always the dizziness which gets me first - I feel dizzy, then like I'm floating or falling and like I'm going to faint and then all the other panic attack symptoms kick in. (Although, thankfully, I only get dizzy when I'm anxious now... Before I conquered the agoraphobia it was continual, as I said.)
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Sorry you were crying and felt sick from it. You really are strong Starry, glad that you've conquered your fear. I was the same and I didn't reach my goal until this year. I could not even walk to the corner of my street without panicking or feeling light. I still have some agoraphobic fears too. Taking yourself through it is hell, but the end is worth it all. Hugs to dear Starry. I wish you the best. You're still magnificent, agoraphobia is something you can't help. Stay strong.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Starry said:
Indeed! ^_^

However, today has made me feel worse... My husband decided to get me to focus on the agoraphobia more so made me walk in a lane and up a hill... It was only brief - a few minutes - but I had a severe panic attack... My chest hurt very badly because I was breathing so heavily, my stomach hurt and I felt sick, I tried to run back down the hill at one point, but that made me feel worse, so I turned back around and ran back up... When I finally got back to a "safe" field my legs were trembling so much I thought they'd give way and I was forcing myself to hold back tears... I hate agoraphobia. *Sigh*
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I'm sorry Starry but its really very brave of you to face your fears. I hope you feel better soon, hang in there.
 
Starry

Starry

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Thank you, Srijita and Beleza. :)

*******

My marrow cake which I decided to bake today is finished and smells delicious! ^_^
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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Starry said:
Indeed! ^_^

However, today has made me feel worse... My husband decided to get me to focus on the agoraphobia more so made me walk in a lane and up a hill... It was only brief - a few minutes - but I had a severe panic attack... My chest hurt very badly because I was breathing so heavily, my stomach hurt and I felt sick, I tried to run back down the hill at one point, but that made me feel worse, so I turned back around and ran back up... When I finally got back to a "safe" field my legs were trembling so much I thought they'd give way and I was forcing myself to hold back tears... I hate agoraphobia. *Sigh*
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Aw. ::(: Well, you did okay for managing to get that far.

My mother has agoraphobia so I kind of know what it's all about. Sounds like a horrible phobia, but at least you're trying. :)
 
Starry

Starry

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Thank you Mikey. :)

It is horrible indeed... All the more when you actually enjoy being outside more than you do being in...
 
this_portrait

this_portrait

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I'm nearly broke (at least as far as my wallet goes) and food is rather scarce in my apartment, so I've been holding off on eating lately. Starving artist much?
 
cowboyup

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I wonder why there seems to be such an influx of people who call themselves (or others) nerds, geeks, and dorks these days?

Someone I used to hang around with used to call me a dork & nerd all the time, it was funny at first, but then it got annoying.

I just want to be myself. Without labels.
 
twiggle

twiggle

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cowboyup said:
I wonder why there seems to be such an influx of people who call themselves (or others) nerds, geeks, and dorks these days?

Someone I used to hang around with used to call me a dork & nerd all the time, it was funny at first, but then it got annoying.

I just want to be myself. Without labels.
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Labels are pointless.
I hate them - as if any personality out there is so basic that you can describe it in just one or two words.
 
BlackPuma

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I find it funny how the movie industry complains about piracy, but makes little effort to make legal access to these motion picture better. Physical copies are just too expensive and digital availability is just terrible as of now.

It frustrates me deeply. On one hand, I love movies, but on the other I LOATH the way the industry works.
 
JuiceB

JuiceB

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BlackPuma said:
I find it funny how the movie industry complains about piracy, but makes little effort to make legal access to these motion picture better. Physical copies are just too expensive and digital availability is just terrible as of now.

It frustrates me deeply. On one hand, I love movies, but on the other I LOATH the way the industry works.
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I think that's the point. They want people to spend more on discs because its good for their bottom line. For the public digital availability would be ideal, just not as profitable for the industry.

Besides, I believe the film industry has gone downhill within the past 10 years or so. About 90% of all films aren't even worth watching anymore. Its like they're running out of original ideas and focusing more on remakes and video game/comic book/tv show adaptations.
 
Opaline

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JuiceB said:
Besides, I believe the film industry has gone downhill within the past 10 years or so. About 90% of all films aren't even worth watching anymore. Its like they're running out of original ideas and focusing more on remakes and video game/comic book/tv show adaptations.
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YEESSSSS.

It seems they are just recycling the same old ideas within different contexts. All stories do that to some degree (archetypes, themes, and so forth), but Hollywood just generally seems like it's suffering from a lack of any new material. The same tired fratboy comedies, cheesy love stories and "badass" action movies with a little soft porn thrown in. And of course the adaptations like you mentioned.

Yaaaaawn. I'd much rather watch and rewatch oldies but goodies.
 
BlackPuma

BlackPuma

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JuiceB said:
I think that's the point. They want people to spend more on discs because its good for their bottom line. For the public digital availability would be ideal, just not as profitable for the industry.

Besides, I believe the film industry has gone downhill within the past 10 years or so. About 90% of all films aren't even worth watching anymore. Its like they're running out of original ideas and focusing more on remakes and video game/comic book/tv show adaptations.
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I can't help but agree with you on that. Most movies are quite terrible. But there are exceptions. I love all the Marvel/super hero movies (well, most of them at least) for example. Also the occasional charming animated movies, and the rare amazing dramas here and there (love me 'sum Will Smith).

Speaking of silly adaptations by the way;
Hansel and Gretel : Witch Hunters - Official Trailer [HD] - YouTube

I literally couldn't stop laughing. I mean, as an action movie, sure, but why oh why did it need -this- setup?
 
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