Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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Opaline
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I'm tired of people telling me certain things I think are all in my head. It's quite obvious some of them are not. Or that certain things aren't things I should be upset about. Spend a day in my shoes. I'm not saying anyone should pity me, but if they could understand where the f*** I'm coming from, maybe they wouldn't say such things.
I'm not just a sad, sorry person blinded by self-pity and negative bias. Just because I struggle with my self-esteem and depression doesn't mean every negative reaction I perceive from someone is a lie influenced by my issues.
I'm not just a sad, sorry person blinded by self-pity and negative bias. Just because I struggle with my self-esteem and depression doesn't mean every negative reaction I perceive from someone is a lie influenced by my issues.
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Srijita52
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People often have a hard time understanding something when they aren't going through similar experiences. If there's something that's causing you trouble then its a real problem and not in your head.
dyingtolive
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@ Tally, you go tell them Lara! cheers!
@ Olhos, good luck before u know it it 6 months have passed, i cant believe how fast time goes when im hooked on a game..
@ Olhos, good luck before u know it it 6 months have passed, i cant believe how fast time goes when im hooked on a game..
psych
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Well, I made $170.00 off of old jewelry I didn't wear anyways!
& My buddy took us out for a couple drinks and a meal, so I'm in good spirits right now. Had a few laughs, & I have gas and grocery money for a few weeks.
All in all, a good afternoon!
I come back in here, & people have been so kind. That makes me feel good too...
But, then most are so sad, frustrated and hurt... I wish I could take everyone with me me when I'm happy...
Then, I get let back down to earth. thud*
Hasn't happened just yet for me, but it's inevitable. I do wish everyone could find an oasis of pleasant distraction this weekend, though.
& My buddy took us out for a couple drinks and a meal, so I'm in good spirits right now. Had a few laughs, & I have gas and grocery money for a few weeks.
All in all, a good afternoon!
I come back in here, & people have been so kind. That makes me feel good too...
But, then most are so sad, frustrated and hurt... I wish I could take everyone with me me when I'm happy...
Then, I get let back down to earth. thud*
Hasn't happened just yet for me, but it's inevitable. I do wish everyone could find an oasis of pleasant distraction this weekend, though.
Gaucho
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helo there, u just described my last 4 months.
I dislike when people spread their messages over many different messages in instant messengers.
It makes replying difficult because the ''person is typing'' message stays on so long, and I'm just waiting for it to turn off so I can respond to what they've typed. I always try to get as much in one single message as possible.
It makes replying difficult because the ''person is typing'' message stays on so long, and I'm just waiting for it to turn off so I can respond to what they've typed. I always try to get as much in one single message as possible.
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Hoppy
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Strangely enough, I have problems with people who create problems in their heads, and then come and force them on me. And then when I try to tell them, "but I don't have problems", they insist on interfering.
I hate alternative realities.
MikeyC
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Oh, that's the same for me. If people dislike me I always have to wonder why and change their mind about it. I wish that wasn't the case.
A friend of mine at work had a breakdown in 2004 and he said after that he got a new perspective on life, and since then he doesn't care if people hate him. I wish I had that sort of mindset, and maybe I will.
Well, thank you for the lovely compliments, my friend.
I don't understand how you're a failure. You're kind and compassionate yourself. I agree with everything you said about Srijita, too.I want to believe you, but as you said it's hard to believe sometimes.
Well said. There are people out there who don't understand too well. My friend thinks some of my issues are all in my mind, too, which they technically are but it doesn't help to hear it.
KiaKaha
Banned
You are a godsend. Thank you.
Phoenixx
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^ Woah. I had to google that, because I kind of couldn't believe it myself. :
: Yeah, I totally thought he was in his early 30s.
Srijita52
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Yeah, I wish that too. It would've been easier definitely. I've a friend who says he doesn't care what others think of him and he truly doesn't. I can only dream about it.
lonelyworm
Active member
cba anymore.......
Lifes **** atm.
That is all
Lifes **** atm.
That is all
MsBuzzkillington
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That is crazy. That is like Wentworth Miller (the guy on Prison Break) is 40. I didn't think he was 40. I with I had their genes to look so young. I remember I had a teacher who I thought was in his 20s and he was in his late 40s. Crazy.
Phoenixx
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^ I hear ya. Another one that comes to mind is Jonathan Mangum. He's pretty young looking anything, but if you've ever seen his comedic style and even the way he sometimes dresses, he comes off like he's in his 20s, not 40s. The man is aging in reverse!
MikeyC
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What's wrong?
Srijita52
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What's wrong?
MsBuzzkillington
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Random ramblings too long and too boring to bother reading, Just a warning.
Tomorrow I am going to a water park with my friend and her mom, sister, and her sister's boyfriend. I have pretty much known her and her sister and mom since I was really little. So I know them well enough, so I really shouldn't be that nervous to go.
I want to go to the park because I used to go all the time and it is pretty fun. I am not sure if it will be super fun now that I am older, but we will see.
But on the other hand, I am really, really really nervous. I don't want to go. I really...really don't want to. I don't think anyone has seen me in a swimming suit in a year or more. I am really nervous about that. A whole bunch of people seeing me in a swimming suit? Eeeeek. I am going to feel so exposed. I had a swimming suit that was a tank top type thing and then a little skirt thing, so it covered me up pretty well. But it didn't fit anymore so I gave it away. I realized I didn't have a swimming suit and I had to go buy one today. It was really awful, so awful. They don't have those skirt things anymore, which is dumb. I tried on a few tank tops but they didn't fit. None of them fit. I tried on one pieces but they were ugly. I ended up getting a two piece, exposes way too much of my body but I couldn't find anything else. Maybe I should have gone to another store, I don't know. I probably spent an hour and a half trying on swimming suits. They really didn't have cute options if you are bigger, they really didn't have options for cover up things where you could still look cute.
Oh random interjection. I had a bunch of suits in my hand and I was going to go hang them back up myself because they were busy. The lady told me to put the things I didn't want in the cart or something and I said that's okay and she said but we have to make sure they are all hung up. So I started going through the suits (showing they were hung up) saying "uh um uh um uh uh um" and she was like. "still thinking?" and I said yeah so she told me to just come back with the ones I didn't want and I said okay! Thinking I was being sneaky. Then I went back to pick out more suits and I was like crap! She is going to see me! She is going to know I lied and ask where the suits are! So I walked around the store for like 20 minutes trying to kill time hoping enough people would have gone through that she would forget about me/ not recognize me. Thankfully she wasn't there when I went back.
Also, another random thing- the boy and girl dressing rooms were not separated. It was just one big area. I didn't notice until I saw a guy walking back there. I was like uh um? Ek.
Where was I...I am feeling really self-conscious. I don't want to go tomorrow, I don't want them to see me in a suit. I don't want anyone to see my huge thunder thighs walking down the paths. I bought a pair of shorts to cover up my thighs. I was thinking of buying a shirt/tank top to put over my stomach area but then I realized it would be stupid to spend 35 bucks on a swimming suit only to spend another 35 bucks on clothing to cover up the swimming suit. I am thinking of just dealing with it. I am thinking of just saying "screw it" and wear my swimming suit without the shorts because, it is like who really cares if I have huge thighs? Who cares if I am really fat? Let the haters hate, ya know? I want to have fun in the sun and get a tan. But at the same time I am like, people are going to be staring at me and I am going to be that person that "shouldn't be wearing that". Ugh.
Also, trying on suits as a huge reminder of how much weight I've gained. If only we went to the water park 3 months ago.
I am still thinking about making an excuse and backing out. I hope that the weather is really really bad so the decision is made for me and I don't have to worry.
Just a warning. Tomorrow I am going to a water park with my friend and her mom, sister, and her sister's boyfriend. I have pretty much known her and her sister and mom since I was really little. So I know them well enough, so I really shouldn't be that nervous to go.
I want to go to the park because I used to go all the time and it is pretty fun. I am not sure if it will be super fun now that I am older, but we will see.
But on the other hand, I am really, really really nervous. I don't want to go. I really...really don't want to. I don't think anyone has seen me in a swimming suit in a year or more. I am really nervous about that. A whole bunch of people seeing me in a swimming suit? Eeeeek. I am going to feel so exposed. I had a swimming suit that was a tank top type thing and then a little skirt thing, so it covered me up pretty well. But it didn't fit anymore so I gave it away. I realized I didn't have a swimming suit and I had to go buy one today. It was really awful, so awful. They don't have those skirt things anymore, which is dumb. I tried on a few tank tops but they didn't fit. None of them fit. I tried on one pieces but they were ugly. I ended up getting a two piece, exposes way too much of my body but I couldn't find anything else. Maybe I should have gone to another store, I don't know. I probably spent an hour and a half trying on swimming suits. They really didn't have cute options if you are bigger, they really didn't have options for cover up things where you could still look cute.
Oh random interjection. I had a bunch of suits in my hand and I was going to go hang them back up myself because they were busy. The lady told me to put the things I didn't want in the cart or something and I said that's okay and she said but we have to make sure they are all hung up. So I started going through the suits (showing they were hung up) saying "uh um uh um uh uh um" and she was like. "still thinking?" and I said yeah so she told me to just come back with the ones I didn't want and I said okay! Thinking I was being sneaky. Then I went back to pick out more suits and I was like crap! She is going to see me! She is going to know I lied and ask where the suits are! So I walked around the store for like 20 minutes trying to kill time hoping enough people would have gone through that she would forget about me/ not recognize me. Thankfully she wasn't there when I went back.
Also, another random thing- the boy and girl dressing rooms were not separated. It was just one big area. I didn't notice until I saw a guy walking back there. I was like uh um? Ek.
Where was I...I am feeling really self-conscious. I don't want to go tomorrow, I don't want them to see me in a suit. I don't want anyone to see my huge thunder thighs walking down the paths. I bought a pair of shorts to cover up my thighs. I was thinking of buying a shirt/tank top to put over my stomach area but then I realized it would be stupid to spend 35 bucks on a swimming suit only to spend another 35 bucks on clothing to cover up the swimming suit. I am thinking of just dealing with it. I am thinking of just saying "screw it" and wear my swimming suit without the shorts because, it is like who really cares if I have huge thighs? Who cares if I am really fat? Let the haters hate, ya know? I want to have fun in the sun and get a tan. But at the same time I am like, people are going to be staring at me and I am going to be that person that "shouldn't be wearing that". Ugh.
Also, trying on suits as a huge reminder of how much weight I've gained. If only we went to the water park 3 months ago.
I am still thinking about making an excuse and backing out. I hope that the weather is really really bad so the decision is made for me and I don't have to worry.