I feel horrible and lonely. I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. I want to give up on school. It's too close to the end (of the semester) and yet not close enough. I've checked out.
I am very disappointed in myself. I have been working out and trying to eat right. I have been counting calories through a fitness website and staying under my goal. I have been riding my bike and walking a lot- nothing too strenuous but I've been getting active. I have also been doing Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred. Lots and lots of people have lost quite a few inches and pounds using this dvd. So I was like, Yeah! I'll do it! 30 days later and I only lost one inch in my hips and no where else. I think I only lost about 2 pounds in the last month too. I am so disappointed. So I pretty much just stuffed my face all day long. I couldn't stop myself.
I want to go back to eating the way I used to. I was chubby, but I was happier in a way. Things weren't so stressful. I am alone now and no one care about me. It doesn't matter if I am fat or skinny, I am still going to be alone. So why can't I just eat cake and watch tv?