Since i refuse to do anything different/spontaneous, boredom tends to :. linger. So that's when i turn to the drink. My saying is "only spirits can lift the spirits" 🤭
I wonder if lack of novelty causes my boredom? :question:
An old black guy caught me at a stoplight and asked me for a ride down the street.
Long story/short, it turned into a five mile ride into the hood at eleven thirty on a Saturday night and I ended up giving him two dollars as well because I can't tell people no (and because I didn't want to seem like a racist, ha ha).
Lesson learned. I haven't given anyone a lift in over ten years because it's almost always a hustle. It's dangerous, and once they're in your car you're at their mercy. Even though he was older, he still could've pulled a gun or a knife and I would've been furcked.
You should've seen my whiter than white ace driving back out of the hood, I ran two stop signs and went between two cars on the street with about 1/2 inch clearance because I didn't want to stop or turn around for anything.
I went for a late night ride and saw that dude again, back on this side of town! 😀 He was walking with a grocery bag down the side of the road like ten miles from where I dropped him off, ha ha. He must just walk around all night getting rides and money from people.
It's obviously my main ROLE in life, to miss out on everything. To watch as others, often many years younger than i, swan around life all smug & content, without a care in the f*cking world.
"Bitter" is a word that comes to mind.
It's obviously my main ROLE in life, to miss out on everything. To watch as others, often many years younger than i, swan around life all smug & content, without a care in the f*cking world.
"Bitter" is a word that comes to mind.
Without a care in the world? I don't understand what you mean by that because everyone - even children - are burdened every day with troubles and anxieties.
Without a care in the world? I don't understand what you mean by that because everyone - even children - are burdened every day with troubles and anxieties.
I think that remark could be because everyone else - ie. Those who don't struggle with crippling anxiety or depression - has it "easy", by comparison, when it comes to going out or interacting socially, no? :question:
I think that remark could be because everyone else - ie. Those who don't struggle with crippling anxiety or depression - has it "easy", by comparison, when it comes to going out or interacting socially, no? :question:
Oh, by that definition I can certainly relate. I didn't view it from that angle at first.
I went for a late night ride and saw that dude again, back on this side of town! 😀 He was walking with a grocery bag down the side of the road like ten miles from where I dropped him off, ha ha. He must just walk around all night getting rides and money from people.
I stopped giving money to the 'poor' and 'homeless' some time ago after realizing a lot of them don't or won't help themselves.
I think that remark could be because everyone else - ie. Those who don't struggle with crippling anxiety or depression - has it "easy", by comparison, when it comes to going out or interacting socially, no? :question:
Yeah ... i meant relative to me. Sure, everybody has their own problems, but i don't believe normal people's problems completely overwhelm them on a daily/regular basis, feelings-wise, like my problems do to me.
I stopped giving money to the 'poor' and 'homeless' some time ago after realizing a lot of them don't or won't help themselves.
Yeah, he caught me at the perfect time, I stopped giving people rides and stuff a long time ago (a hitchhiking DUDE propositioned me so that sealed it, ha ha).
I just felt bad for this guy because he was older and was "only" going half a mile down the road, or so he said. :thumbdown:
I enjoy being alone, it's the only time I'm ever truly happy. :🙁:
Ah guess that's how those us who grow-up in less than stable families are, huh? :sad:
Apparently I've recently taken £50 pounds out of my bank account and transfer the money to my PayPal account balance.
Despite having never transferred any money to that account in over a year.
Apparently I've recently taken £50 pounds out of my bank account and transfer the money to my PayPal account balance.
Despite having never transferred any money to that account in over a year.
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Careful mate.. there's a lot of scams these days from people claiming to be 'paypal' or other companies. Some emails look quite genuine.
I'd call PayPal and advise them. They will tell you if its a scam or not.
Probably a good time to do full virus and malware scans on all your devices and change passwords.
Careful mate.. there's a lot of scams these days from people claiming to be 'paypal' or other companies. Some emails look quite genuine.
I'd call PayPal and advise them. They will tell you if its a scam or not.
My oldest sister said the same thing when I explained that I hadn't added any money to my PayPal account balance in ages.
I know about the scam emails, I usually have those marked as spam. Since I never got caught out by a scam PayPal email, until I saw they'd misspelled my first name at the start of the email. And I get similar scam emails from Amazon as well.
Anyway, I'll get in touch with PayPal tomorrow and see what they say. Might get in touch with my local bank as well, since it was money transferred from my bank account.
This girl at the chemist did a "funny" smile at me, as she finished serving me. She lifted her head as she grinned, so that she was actually looking down at me with narrowed eyes. Does anyone know what that's about? Is it a sign of interest? :question:
Not that i'd be able to do anything at all if she was interested...
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