It does not help that I have been alone for so long. Hearing that shit is like a slap in the face to me, a taunt
Exactly, it's like they're "shoving it in your face", with the attitude of 'suck on that, loser!!! lolololol'. But i don't think that's quite reality, more of over-sensitivity & them pushing your buttons .. and them just doing their own self-centered, oblivious, ignorant, insensitive stuff. So i wouldn't take it too personally. You gotta get past all the "lies" that are attached to such stuff .. the lies that they believe & the lies that you believe. Also, it's useful try to think more accurately/rationally/analytically in general: eg what is "alone"? aren't a "couple" really just 2 separate "alone" people who are in constant close proximity to each other?.
Look, i've been "alone" my entire life (i'm prob twice your age!), and i think i've handled it okay, and it has FORCED me to go deep into myself, philosophy, hobbies/interests, thinking, feelings, spirituality, etc - which i doubt i would have gained if i weren't chronically single .. so it's maybe not really a bad thing AT ALL, looking at "the big picture"...
I feel like a young stray cat wandering these wide, crowded city streets, all alone, nervous if someone will be kind enough to pick me up and cradle me in their arms and tell me that it’s all gonna be okay and I’m not alone, or if some cruel ******* will just kick me to the curb and leave me to continue to fend for myself. Do people see me like that stray cat, wishing they could welcome me with open arms, but for whatever reason they can’t (they have too many problems of their own; their girlfriend won’t let them; they’re afraid I might be mean)?
I can only say that society is a MIX or RANGE of all types of people, with some of them at the extreme ends of the spectrum - some who LOVE/ADORE you (& want to help you), and some who HATE you (or don't give a "flying toss" about you, eg some of those "b'stards" you talk of, & also psychopaths (which make up ~10% of poulation)). But it does seem that the spread isn't that even, with more ppl in the indifferent/hateful side of the graph, but that's only my speculation :thinking: