Not having met many girls in the past 5 years, my brain starts to feel attracted to any girl that looks cute and that I see fairly often. Right now that applies to a girl from my class. I don't really know her, we've only talked very briefly about an assignment we have to do. I know I don't know her enough to even like or dislike her, but my brain just gets obsessed with it and I end up getting a crush on the image my mind creates of her.
I don't like this because when my mind starts to wander off, it'll start thinking of her. This in turn gives power to the obsession. Then I might start eagerly awaiting for the next class so I can see her again. Then if nothing happens it makes me feel pretty bad. If something does happen then I might not be able to pay attention in class or I might start getting anxious for the next times I see her. And it's just really annoying because I know I don't even like the girl.
Haha I didn't know this feeling was a common thing. There's this one guy who started talking to me and everytime he appears I'm happy to see him but I'm SO ANNOYED that I am.
Haha I didn't know this feeling was a common thing. There's this one guy who started talking to me and everytime he appears I'm happy to see him but I'm SO ANNOYED that I am.
Such a mixture of good and bad things, all overwhelming, and the safest bet seems to be to stay in bed and ignore it all 😛 if that makes ANY ****ing sense.
.......of course that catches up to you too. I don't know what to deal with first 😮
Listening to Terence McKenna talk about naturally occurring in our brains DMT and the DMT experience is as close to using it as one can get. He almost makes me halluncate from listening to his words. He was so interesting! I luv that he wasn't interest in keeping secrets from humanity about his findings in any of the topics he explored. I wish he were still here, I'd so much like to listen to what he has to say about our world today.
I was trying so hard to come up with a word long the same line as that one, but my over-tired brain went blank :oh:
Yours is perfect, planemo! :thumbup:
I think I might be the bitterest person on earth right now,I mean living around people made me lose all hope in love,relationships,nothing is true,all fake,as soon as you turn around they stab you......how can that be love?