paperie
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I've been with my boyfriend for around 5 years and although he would like me to have a closer relationship with his parents, I can't seem to spend much time with them without having major anxiety.
Tonight we were supposed to have dinner with them. I spent all day trying to mentally prepare myself, got ready and right before we were about to leave....I pretty much psyched myself out and burst out crying. This has happened several times before, so at this point I think he's getting a bit tired of making excuses for why I'm never with him. His response was, "you're not going to die....it's only a couple hours"....but as soon as I start crying, I get it in my head that there's no way I can go.
I just feel so immature and ashamed of myself. I WANT to go, I just don't know what's wrong with me. I wish I could just be a normal person and go out and enjoy dinner and a nice conversation with his parents. They are nice people. They just intimidate me. He constantly reassures me that they like me, but I always get the feeling they must think I'm weird because I'm so quiet and shy. I always tell my boyfriend that he deserves better, someone more normal. I'm sure his parents think poorly of me because I never show up, so now I feel even more anxious when it comes to spending time with them.
Any advice? Anyone else experience this? I feel like so pathetic right now. I really need to "man up" and stop avoiding situations like this. It's just so hard to move past my mental block.
Tonight we were supposed to have dinner with them. I spent all day trying to mentally prepare myself, got ready and right before we were about to leave....I pretty much psyched myself out and burst out crying. This has happened several times before, so at this point I think he's getting a bit tired of making excuses for why I'm never with him. His response was, "you're not going to die....it's only a couple hours"....but as soon as I start crying, I get it in my head that there's no way I can go.
I just feel so immature and ashamed of myself. I WANT to go, I just don't know what's wrong with me. I wish I could just be a normal person and go out and enjoy dinner and a nice conversation with his parents. They are nice people. They just intimidate me. He constantly reassures me that they like me, but I always get the feeling they must think I'm weird because I'm so quiet and shy. I always tell my boyfriend that he deserves better, someone more normal. I'm sure his parents think poorly of me because I never show up, so now I feel even more anxious when it comes to spending time with them.
Any advice? Anyone else experience this? I feel like so pathetic right now. I really need to "man up" and stop avoiding situations like this. It's just so hard to move past my mental block.