I've always been a really shy kid, and haven't ever really liked big social environments. When I started elementary I settled in with some close friends, but then I moved when I was in grade 3 and never really got over leaving the friendships I already had so I just didn't make any new ones. Was like that until grade 7. I was basically a mute from grade 4 to 7. Then I got a bit more social in high school, but I'm still not into being social in large groups. Where as I'm slightly less socially awkward now, my insecurity is at a really high level. If it wasn't for school and my dedication to actually going and getting good grades, I probably wouldn't really leave my house. But while I'm at school I sort of bear it and try to seem slightly social, at least with the friends that I doooo have. I'm not good at making new ones. I've always sort of had this desire to be a loner though. Just not having to feel the need or obligation to talk to anyone.