^wow congrats!
Suddenly feeling angry and sad. I just remembered something from my childhood. I used to hung out with a group of girls in 5th grade. They're not really friends, more like "frenemies" because they go behind my back sometimes. Without them, I would be alone. We used to play with each other, and soemtimes we do dumb stuff like getting locked behind the doors. There was this big girl named Tammy who used to spy on us, report back to her group of friends, and laugh. I didn't know about this until one day I caught her doing it. I saw her pointing at me and my friends, laughing, and then telling her friends how stupid we were. They were also laughing.
And what hurts is that Tammy's group of friends included a girl who was my friend. She and Tammy and another girl were talking behind my back and laughing at me all this time, and i only just realized this. Last year I met her and her parents at a restaurant before she went abroad to teach. I actually didn't want to meet her at all but my mom kept urging me to.
I get the impression that her friend Tammy was kind of arrogant. Just because she's getting all straight As and being much older than almost everybody else doesn't mean she's superior than the rest of us. I also think my friend looked up to her. No wonder during recess, my friend wouldn't come near me, ever. I mean, we're friends right? Aren't we supposed to play together? It's like she's avoiding me whenever she's with Tammy, but outside of school, she willingly associates with me and my other friends.