@Graeme1988 Ugh, I feel that way too. I hope things pick up for you m'dear.
I feel...awful. I seriously do not deserve friends. Every time I try and make friends people just hate me. I joined a local cosplay group from my town to try and make friends in the hobby, since they used to come into my store before it shut down and tell me about it and asked me to join and seemed really nice. So I join, thank them for letting me and then proceed to ask if any of them are going to London's cosplay con. My message gets deleted. I got a message from the mod telling me she doesn't participate in anything but her own meet ups with friends. I THEN get a friend request from someone with the following message:
"Stop trying to post on OUR wall. Stop trying to make friends with OUR group. You don't have the right to speak to us, or join our meet ups or post without OUR say so. Go away. Good bye."
I go to check this person out, but the profile has been closed down. So it was obviously created just to send me a rude message.
Seriously. I just...why can I not make friends at all? People seem to hate me no matter what I do. I spoke to the mod of the Facebook page about it and she just ignored my polite message and continued deleting my posts on the wall. Even ones where I simply say "Hey everyone, hows it going?
". What do I do that makes me so unlike-able? I don't want to be swimming in friends and popularity, but for once I make a move and try and get involved with others, thinking
'Screw this, I AM going to make friends, I'm going to try and get over my phobias and insecurities' and they just get thrown back into my face. Now I have this voice in my head going 'Told you so. No one likes you.' and I know it's right.
I was nice to these people. They used to come into my store and stand around not buying anything and using it like a coffee shop, and I thought 'They get told to go away a lot, so as long as they are calm and don't start being really loud, it's fine', so I let them hang out. They seemed nice, friendly and encouraged me to join their group and well...they aren't so nice.
I feel like crying and seriously doing something so stupid, because this had just made me feel so low right now. No one would even give a rats ass if I just got up, walked out of my house and disappeared. No one would think, 'where did she go?' 'Is she okay?' 'What happened?'. Sometimes I think I should just get up and leave. I can't do bugger all right. Got made redundant three weeks into a job, have no friends, my family think I'm a disappointment. I just have nothing to offer anyone any more. Did I even have anything to begin with?
