How are you feeling?

MikeyC

MikeyC

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I feel okay, but I can feel myself slipping into despair. I have to now learn some things my therapist has taught me so I don't slip further!
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Like a loser of such epic proportions, it's somewhat tragic. Yet, I don't care, which is slightly worrying. I wish I could just get away from it all for a few days. I also wish I was so f*%king sensative all the time. And my disability's getting me down, which doesn't really help matters. ::(:

As you can probably tell, I've had better days. And obviously need therapy. It's either that or turn my journal entries into a stand-up comedy monologue.
 
Invisibleman

Invisibleman

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Theres one thing that I really hate about myself. I hate,abso-f**kin-lutely hate getting help. Its why I havent seen a therapist at this point which I want to so badly but I cant stand accepting help. Ive been weak for so long and ive never been able to shake the feeling that seeking help is a blatant sign of weakness even though I know deep down its not. I want to stop but I dont know how.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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Damn it, starting to feel a bit lonely again tonight. I think that's a sure sign it's time for bed. Ehh. ::(:
 
Falkor

Falkor

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Insane! I wanna practice calculating all day, read intresting books, go hiking today, go take a bath for a lot of hours, go watch a nice serie, go write reports, do work for my therapy, go sing a nice song, run a marathon, skydyve (just kidding), why can't I seem to slow down?

And If I slow down, why can't I put my mind off zero? I can't seem to embrace to calm down....

I guess it's because it's Sunday... Next day school... ALARMED..yay
 
Imogen

Imogen

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@Graeme1988 Ugh, I feel that way too. I hope things pick up for you m'dear.


I feel...awful. I seriously do not deserve friends. Every time I try and make friends people just hate me. I joined a local cosplay group from my town to try and make friends in the hobby, since they used to come into my store before it shut down and tell me about it and asked me to join and seemed really nice. So I join, thank them for letting me and then proceed to ask if any of them are going to London's cosplay con. My message gets deleted. I got a message from the mod telling me she doesn't participate in anything but her own meet ups with friends. I THEN get a friend request from someone with the following message:

"Stop trying to post on OUR wall. Stop trying to make friends with OUR group. You don't have the right to speak to us, or join our meet ups or post without OUR say so. Go away. Good bye."

I go to check this person out, but the profile has been closed down. So it was obviously created just to send me a rude message.

Seriously. I just...why can I not make friends at all? People seem to hate me no matter what I do. I spoke to the mod of the Facebook page about it and she just ignored my polite message and continued deleting my posts on the wall. Even ones where I simply say "Hey everyone, hows it going? :D". What do I do that makes me so unlike-able? I don't want to be swimming in friends and popularity, but for once I make a move and try and get involved with others, thinking 'Screw this, I AM going to make friends, I'm going to try and get over my phobias and insecurities' and they just get thrown back into my face. Now I have this voice in my head going 'Told you so. No one likes you.' and I know it's right.

I was nice to these people. They used to come into my store and stand around not buying anything and using it like a coffee shop, and I thought 'They get told to go away a lot, so as long as they are calm and don't start being really loud, it's fine', so I let them hang out. They seemed nice, friendly and encouraged me to join their group and well...they aren't so nice.

I feel like crying and seriously doing something so stupid, because this had just made me feel so low right now. No one would even give a rats ass if I just got up, walked out of my house and disappeared. No one would think, 'where did she go?' 'Is she okay?' 'What happened?'. Sometimes I think I should just get up and leave. I can't do bugger all right. Got made redundant three weeks into a job, have no friends, my family think I'm a disappointment. I just have nothing to offer anyone any more. Did I even have anything to begin with?
 
twiggle

twiggle

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Imogen said:
@Graeme1988 Ugh, I feel that way too. I hope things pick up for you m'dear.


I feel...awful. I seriously do not deserve friends. Every time I try and make friends people just hate me. I joined a local cosplay group from my town to try and make friends in the hobby, since they used to come into my store before it shut down and tell me about it and asked me to join and seemed really nice. So I join, thank them for letting me and then proceed to ask if any of them are going to London's cosplay con. My message gets deleted. I got a message from the mod telling me she doesn't participate in anything but her own meet ups with friends. I THEN get a friend request from someone with the following message:

"Stop trying to post on OUR wall. Stop trying to make friends with OUR group. You don't have the right to speak to us, or join our meet ups or post without OUR say so. Go away. Good bye."

I go to check this person out, but the profile has been closed down. So it was obviously created just to send me a rude message.

Seriously. I just...why can I not make friends at all? People seem to hate me no matter what I do. I spoke to the mod of the Facebook page about it and she just ignored my polite message and continued deleting my posts on the wall. Even ones where I simply say "Hey everyone, hows it going? :D". What do I do that makes me so unlike-able? I don't want to be swimming in friends and popularity, but for once I make a move and try and get involved with others, thinking 'Screw this, I AM going to make friends, I'm going to try and get over my phobias and insecurities' and they just get thrown back into my face. Now I have this voice in my head going 'Told you so. No one likes you.' and I know it's right.

I was nice to these people. They used to come into my store and stand around not buying anything and using it like a coffee shop, and I thought 'They get told to go away a lot, so as long as they are calm and don't start being really loud, it's fine', so I let them hang out. They seemed nice, friendly and encouraged me to join their group and well...they aren't so nice.

I feel like crying and seriously doing something so stupid, because this had just made me feel so low right now. No one would even give a rats ass if I just got up, walked out of my house and disappeared. No one would think, 'where did she go?' 'Is she okay?' 'What happened?'. Sometimes I think I should just get up and leave. I can't do bugger all right. Got made redundant three weeks into a job, have no friends, my family think I'm a disappointment. I just have nothing to offer anyone any more. Did I even have anything to begin with?
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Those people sound seriously, seriously messed up... the kind that purposely seek conflict.
That's just not decent behaviour, at all.
Consider yourself lucky that you won't be getting to know them further.
"Our wall"...lol. Sounds a bit cliquey. You don't want to be getting involved with any of that kind of rubbish, it sounds like in high school when people make groups of friends and don't allow anyone into the room without saying the 'secret word'.
 
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