How are you feeling?

Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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DeadmanWalking said:
As for the other thing, well, can you push it to the side for the moment? Is it something that directly affects you?
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^ Maybe. If the thought of it doesn't keep creeping back into my mind. It doesn't directly affect me, no, but it's pretty darn close. I'm just so... angry about the whole situation. >.<
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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Phoenixx said:
^ Maybe. If the thought of it doesn't keep creeping back into my mind. It doesn't directly affect me, no, but it's pretty darn close. I'm just so... angry about the whole situation. >.<
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If you're trying to push it aside, then don't give it an opportunity to show up. Keep your mind busy with something. Maybe confronting the situation and putting an end to it with your own hands will make things better. I'm sorry about this Phoenixx.
 
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jimmie

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Little Miss Muffet said:
Feeling sad: lump in my throat. Trying to push something down. In a relationship with someone. I am a loyal person but i sometimes have doubts about them or the time we spend together is not enough - i feel i cant relax until i tell them i cant do a relationship. This isnt right is it.

I feel i dont mind most of the time if we talk or not - but then my feelings like imediately go to being way too much and i really need out.

When i was at the mental health centre the worker witnessed my emotions go from 0 - 100 in a few seconds
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i have lupm in throat too when i dont talk to you,but i dont have doubts about us if we dont talk to much cos we are so far away,its hard form me too,you were here last night and didnt text me ahhh.why dont you say those things to me but you post them here annyway i love you babe and im getting ready to meet you
 
megalon

megalon

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I feel like today's gonna be a long day. I'm the best man at my brother's wedding today. My mom has assumed control of everything wedding related and our family is doing everything, so I'm going to end up acting as a waiter delivering food, cleaning everything up after the reception, and doing whatever else is needed. I've been going to the church to help set things up after work all week.
 
Lea

Lea

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I just discovered a (probably neighbours) cat in my room, she was hidden since the morning. I told it to my parents and my father got furious, because he accused me of having opened the window, when it isn´t true. I just said I had it open overnight and he is furious. But the problem with my room is that the walls and ceiling and floor apparently have no insuation, because when there is heating on the warmth soon disappears (just as when you make a fire outside, when it goes off you´re cold). So in the morning there was 13 celsius and now after the heating has been on most of the day it´s 15... it´s rarely ever more. But I know rooms where you can have the window open the whole night and still there is 22 celsius.. even more when you turn the heating on, it instantly warms the whole room and it stays whole day. But they get furious when I start saying something about having the room insulated - even when I make money for it. I know they would never allow me to bring somebody in to do it. They never allow me to change or repair anything in the house, even when I say that I pay for it. It just makes me feeling helpless and just think all my trying are pointless and that I should leave and wait till they die, then come back into this run down house and hopefully manage to put it in order somewhat..

They don´t care about my room and that I am cold here, they spend their whole time in the kitchen which is quite small and has insulation and hay above them in the attic (whereas I have none) so there is super warm instantly after putting the heating on and it stays.. unlike in my room. It´s easy for them to blame it on my opening windows, easier than to admit the truth about this ****ty room. If I wasn´t afraid of them polluting my room I would shut them here and never let them come out. Would be a great punishment that they fully deserve :/.
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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Lea said:
I just discovered a (probably neighbours) cat in my room, she was hidden since the morning. I told it to my parents and my father got furious, because he accused me of having opened the window, when it isn´t true. I just said I had it open overnight and he is furious. But the problem with my room is that the walls and ceiling and floor apparently have no insuation, because when there is heating on the warmth soon disappears (just as when you make a fire outside, when it goes off you´re cold). So in the morning there was 13 celsius and now after the heating has been on most of the day it´s 15... it´s rarely ever more. But I know rooms where you can have the window open the whole night and still there is 22 celsius.. even more when you turn the heating on, it instantly warms the whole room and it stays whole day. But they get furious when I start saying something about having the room insulated - even when I make money for it. I know they would never allow me to bring somebody in to do it. They never allow me to change or repair anything in the house, even when I say that I pay for it. It just makes me feeling helpless and just think all my trying are pointless and that I should leave and wait till they die, then come back into this run down house and hopefully manage to put it in order somewhat..

They don´t care about my room and that I am cold here, they spend their whole time in the kitchen which is quite small and has insulation and hay above them in the attic (whereas I have none) so there is super warm instantly after putting the heating on and it stays.. unlike in my room. It´s easy for them to blame it on my opening windows, easier than to admit the truth about this ****ty room. If I wasn´t afraid of them polluting my room I would shut them here and never let them come out. Would be a great punishment that they fully deserve :/.
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Wow, I'm so sorry about that. Your dad sounds like a real a**hole. Why don't you save up some money so you can move out because it doesn't seem like your parents really care about you.
 
Lea

Lea

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DeadmanWalking said:
Wow, I'm so sorry about that. Your dad sounds like a real a**hole. Why don't you save up some money so you can move out because it doesn't seem like your parents really care about you.
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I was once working abroad 2,5 years and saved quite an amount of money, originally I wanted to buy a flat from it but I gave it to my dad to put it in the bank and he never gave it to me back. I know now I was stupid but I really did trust him, it never occured to me that he would refuse to give it to me.

So what I earned ever since, I spent it on travel because I figured out I´d never save up for my own living anymore and traveling was the easiest way to get out of the house.. Besides I don´t feel I´d ever have this strength of will and motivation to go through such hell like before when I was saving up that first money, as find it hard to give a f*** about anything. I also have a problem with tiredness so I don't know how I cope at work when I go there.
 
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DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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Lea said:
I was once working abroad 2,5 years and saved quite an amount of money, originally I wanted to buy a flat from it but I gave it to my dad to put it in the bank and he never gave it to me back. I know now I was stupid but I really did trust him, it never occured to me that he would refuse to give it to me.

So what I earned ever since, I spent it on travel because I figured out I´d never save up for my own living anymore and traveling was the easiest way to get out of the house.. Besides I don´t feel I´d ever have this strength of will and motivation to go through such hell like before when I was saving up that first money, as find it hard to give a f*** about anything. I also have a problem with tiredness so I don't know how I cope at work when I go there.
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I wouldn't call it foolishness. After all, we should expect our parents out of all people to be trustworthy and hold up their word when they say something to us. Unless he was like this from the get-go and even then it may have simply been because, somewhere within you, you still love him (or you can't say no), but I don't personally know you, so I could be way off base with this.

Traveling seems to be your way of releasing and escaping the stress your parents put on you. Where would you like to travel next? I would suggest somewhere serene and tranquil since you need your rest. If you're going to work tired, eventually it'll catch up and then bad things will soon follow. Now, why don't you care about anything?
 
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