How are you feeling?

EscapeArtist

Well-known member
urrrrg I feel so stuck, taken so many steps back, and have no idea what to do with where I'm at, and have been here for the last 3 months...
 

MrJones

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You're as capable as you believe yourself to be. You can make that dream possible, so please quit talking down to yourself. You have a lot more potential than you think, so, for this dream, believe in yourself and make it come true. If there's someone you love, don't hesitate to tell her and if there's something that makes you happy then do it. This is your story; now, how do you want this story to end? Break down any opposition and don't stop moving forward.
The problem comes when the opposition is the dream itself... I'm not allowed to try.
Btw the ones I love know how I feel about them, I try to be open and honest. Sometimes it's a one way road, though.
"Being a pathetic loser and a complete freak always makes things harder and this time will be no exception."

Hey that's my line. I should really get royalties when others use it. ::p:

Sometimes I wonder what I'm really doing here and what I really want. Perhaps what I want is perfection, and if that's what i want then it's never gonna happen. I may be off here, but if you're anything like me, you want conditions to be a certain way, in order for you to feel comfortable and to express your happiness? "If only I had this, or if only that was a certain way... then maybe I could be happy."

For me anyway the problem is that i'm never content, i always want to change things and make them better, more ideal.

I think you can achieve your goal though. Perhaps it's just as simple as it sounds. Maybe we make too much of circumstances and think it's something that requires great effort or luck. perhaps it's easier to achieve then we think. i hope it works out for you.
I knew already (for a year or so) that I want to completely change my life and I thought that after finishing uni (if I approve everything, in a year and a half) it would be the right time to start, but I had no idea what to do. Now I think I know what to do, what I want in life.
I don't want perfection, as it doesn't exist. Conditions may not be the best but I really want this. Maybe I'm just being selfish...
Since when are you a "pathetic loser"? You say you know exactly what you want to do with your life - that's more than what heaps of people can say about themselves! You should try everything in your power to make it happen!
I've been always a pathetic loser. Btw things are sometimes complicated. It's not so much about what I want to do but what I can do. I wish I could do more but it's not up to me.



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Thank you all for your replies, and sorry for the delay in answering them. And sorry for the long post but I don't like multiposting :p
 

MikeyC

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drained and horrible. from the moment i wake up to the moment i go to sleep i am consumed with dread, anxiety, and unhappiness. my new job is killing me. not because of the work, the work itself is fine. it is the environment. no windows, fluorescent lighting, sitting in an open office environment with people walking around me, being watched by my supervisor whose desk is directly facing mine. all day. i do not have any privacy all day long except when i hide out in my car on my lunch break. i spend my entire day fake smiling, being on form to laugh at all the right places, and listening to commercial music. the lack of privacy is exhausting. i have no joy. no energy to feign joy.

then i hang out with my boyfriend after work but have nothing to contribute. in fact, i tend to take it out on him which is undeserved. i am afraid i will lose him. it's going to happen. he doesn't want to be around someone who is so saturated in misery. can you blame him?

i've only been at this job for 3 weeks and i feel like i am going to crack.
Aww, I feel for you. That kind of sterile, fake environment, minus the privacy, would make anyone feel like crap. I know I would have some trouble adjusting to it.

I don't really have any advice for you, unfortunately, as there's not much you can do about it unless you quit your job, which I'm sure you won't want to do. We're here for you if you need to vent (so you can keep the acid away from your loving boyfriend). :)

Headache. Headache. Headache.
*gives superluouslyme a head massage* They make you feel a lot better, trust me. Even giving yourself one does help.

I've been always a pathetic loser. Btw things are sometimes complicated. It's not so much about what I want to do but what I can do. I wish I could do more but it's not up to me.
I just can't imagine seeing you as a pathetic loser, my friend. It's all so sad.
 
Hungover.
And like I'm being manipulated. And I'm pretty ****** off about it.

::(: I hope it's by someone outside of your immediate family? I hope it's someone who you are able to distance yourself from?
I don't have any advice for a hangover, I have yet to experience one. But I can give you (((Hugs)))
 

this_portrait

Well-known member
A little bad, I kinda realised today how lonely I'm always lol.

That's never a good feeling. Hope you feel better.

I have this headache that keeps trying to come on in the right side of my head. I don't know why. It's been trying to bother me since last night.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Indifferent. I can't help feeling my oldest sister has become a self-absorbed, lying bitch, and no-longer care about me. But I'm not alone in that, my mum and other sister (who's also older than me) feel the same way. I think it's got to that point where I don't really give a f*** anymore.
 
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