How are you feeling?

[DeadmanWalking]

A guy I haven't spoken to in months - who's a massive pervert (and not in a funny way) - just wrote a rude comment on one of my Facebook photos. I think it was meant to be a joke but I don't appreciate things like that coming from acquaintances who haven't bothered to speak to me for any other reason over the past few months, than to just write things like that.
I deleted him there and then.
I know I'm normally anti-deleting but it felt good. I could get used to doing it - get these idiots from the past out of my life once and for all.

I'm sorry that you had to be a witness to that twiggle. There's a fine line between teasing and being a d*ck, hopefully he realizes that. So, are you okay? And, yes, deleting the idiots out of your life should help you move forward. Hope you feel better twiggle!

 

[Invisibleman]

I feel like garbage. depressed. *sigh*

 

[DeadmanWalking]

I feel like garbage. depressed. *sigh*

Why do you feel like garbage? You haven't done anything in character of being garbage, have you?

 

[MikeyC]

Depressed. Hit me really hard when I woke up at 6am and have been feeling like this since. It's kind of waned off a bit, but I'm not sure if it's just for the time being or whether it'll just hit me like a brick wall again within the next hour or so.

Sorry to hear that, Phoenixx. Sounds a lot like me. We're just slaves to this garbage, eh?

Can you find a support group for changing habits? In some countries, there are some free programs you can join!

Sometimes people can talk about things that make others uncomfortable... yeah, I like the idea of changing topics and/or telling people you're uncomfortable with it (depends on the people, sometimes just talking about something more interesting can help better!)

YAY for getting out of the house!! GO MIKEY!!

I actually suggested a dietitian to my mate, who immediately asked if I was joking...I guess he doesn't think that's a good idea. He's kind of right, though - it's more of an attitude problem than anything else. I know I should eat chicken and vegetables instead of McDonald's, but it's getting that self-sabotage out of the way that will help, and hopefully my therapist can help me.

I feel silly typing it out, actually, because I know what I should be doing, but I just don't for whatever reason. It's saddening.

That discussion was uncomfortable with him because I don't feel he necessarily understands what I'm going through. His life is very cruisy and he's always happy and jovial so I don't expect him to get it.

Haha thanks.

 

[MikeyC]

A guy I haven't spoken to in months - who's a massive pervert (and not in a funny way) - just wrote a rude comment on one of my Facebook photos. I think it was meant to be a joke but I don't appreciate things like that coming from acquaintances who haven't bothered to speak to me for any other reason over the past few months, than to just write things like that.
I deleted him there and then.
I know I'm normally anti-deleting but it felt good. I could get used to doing it - get these idiots from the past out of my life once and for all.

Even if it were a joke, it's hard to decipher without body language and voice tone. I think you did the right thing.

 

[MikeyC]

The :: emoticon always ensures good-natured times.

Judging from an unscrupulous past you two have had, it's an even better decision.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm a little nervous. Soon my mum and I are going somewhere partially deserted so I can learn to drive her manual car. I'm not good at manual (actually, hopeless), so I'm not expecting this to be successful.

More than that, I know she's going to ask me if I'm okay and stuff, and the forced socialising is going to make this whole deal terrible. We'll soon see.

 

[this_portrait]

I'm a little nervous. Soon my mum and I are going somewhere partially deserted so I can learn to drive her manual car. I'm not good at manual (actually, hopeless), so I'm not expecting this to be successful.

More than that, I know she's going to ask me if I'm okay and stuff, and the forced socialising is going to make this whole deal terrible. We'll soon see.

Good luck with that.

 

[MikeyC]

Good luck with that.

Thanks. I might need it.

 

[Blabla..]

I'm a little nervous. Soon my mum and I are going somewhere partially deserted so I can learn to drive her manual car. I'm not good at manual (actually, hopeless), so I'm not expecting this to be successful.

More than that, I know she's going to ask me if I'm okay and stuff, and the forced socialising is going to make this whole deal terrible. We'll soon see.

cool stuff Mickey , i wish someone did that for me , only my grandfather did when i was a kid , but i couldn't even reach for the pedals , i guess i'm going to stick to riding my bike

 

[MikeyC]

cool stuff Mickey , i wish someone did that for me , only my grandfather did when i was a kid , but i couldn't even reach for the pedals , i guess i'm going to stick to riding my bike

Nothing wrong with riding a bike - much cheaper and far less pollution. Plus the exercise!

 

[Solitudes_Grace]

When you are a kid, your parents are your heroes. The older you become, the more you realize how flawed and broken your parents are. They stop becoming your heroes. You look to other people to become your heroes. Before long, you realize how flawed they are too. Soon, you have nobody left to look up to. All of your heroes have died, and you feel alone.

sorry for venting

 

[this_portrait]

Finally feeling productive now that I'm working on this paper. The heat in this apartment is a bit much, though.

 

[BlueDays]

Incomplete.
In so many ways.
It sucks how some things in society that affect your life are totally out of your control :s

 

[Phoenixx]

I'm not sure... Lingering in between shock and pure anger... and anxiousness. Honestly I don't even know what to think.

Today has just been a really weird, depressing day. If only I could go to sleep, wake up tomorrow to find that it was all just a dream. A really weird, crappy dream.

Not going to happen, but you know. You could hope.

God I wish my roommate would leave. I really want to be left alone, all by myself, in the dorm tonight. Spent 2 hours in the library trying to just get away, and still people surrounded me and felt like I couldn't even escape.

Sorry, I'm getting carried away with my complaining again. Someone just hand me a roll of duct tape. I'll shut myself up. :X

 

[DeadmanWalking]

I'm not sure... Lingering in between shock and pure anger... and anxiousness. Honestly I don't even know what to think.

Today has just been a really weird, depressing day. If only I could go to sleep, wake up tomorrow to find that it was all just a dream. A really weird, crappy dream.

Not going to happen, but you know. You could hope.

God I wish my roommate would leave. I really want to be left alone, all by myself, in the dorm tonight. Spent 2 hours in the library trying to just get away, and still people surrounded me and felt like I couldn't even escape.

Sorry, I'm getting carried away with my complaining again. Someone just hand me a roll of duct tape. I'll shut myself up. :X

*takes duct tape off of mouth* Now that you can speak, tell me what's up. Where did this surge of emotions come from? Did that depression episode earlier today upgrade or did something happen to you? It's okay to rant.

 

[Phoenixx]

*takes duct tape off of mouth* Now that you can speak, tell me what's up. Where did this surge of emotions come from? Did that depression episode earlier today upgrade or did something happen to you? It's okay to rant.

^ Well at least you didn't rip it off.

If you really want to know (TMI), these surging emotions are partly caused from that time of the month. I usually get annoyed and angry and depressed easier than usual. As for the shocked feeling, I'd rather not discuss it here. It's not so much as what happened to me as what I somewhat found out. But I still did have a lot of things happen today though.

As for my depression episode from earlier, it didn't exactly go away, but it definitely improved. It's been up and down all day. I just want the feeling to go away altogether.

 

[MikeyC]

When you are a kid, your parents are your heroes. The older you become, the more you realize how flawed and broken your parents are. They stop becoming your heroes. You look to other people to become your heroes. Before long, you realize how flawed they are too. Soon, you have nobody left to look up to. All of your heroes have died, and you feel alone.

sorry for venting

When you're a young child, you tend to look at your parents and think, "wow, these people must know EVERYTHING!" As you get older and start to know more about life, you find out that they are human and have flaws, and you don't see them through the god-like status you originally had for them. Even if you turn to others, you realise they are also human with flaws.

Just because people aren't perfect doesn't mean you don't have someone to look up to. It's a matter of opinion whether you feel they're well-adjusted enough.

It sucks how some things in society that affect your life are totally out of your control :s

Yeah. That can be thrilling for some and a nightmare for others.

I'm not sure... Lingering in between shock and pure anger... and anxiousness. Honestly I don't even know what to think.

Today has just been a really weird, depressing day. If only I could go to sleep, wake up tomorrow to find that it was all just a dream. A really weird, crappy dream.

Not going to happen, but you know. You could hope.

God I wish my roommate would leave. I really want to be left alone, all by myself, in the dorm tonight. Spent 2 hours in the library trying to just get away, and still people surrounded me and felt like I couldn't even escape.

Sorry, I'm getting carried away with my complaining again. Someone just hand me a roll of duct tape. I'll shut myself up. :X

I'm so sorry you had a terrible day, Phoenixx. I understand the need to be alone and I'm getting that more and more. I hope you feel better.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

^ Well at least you didn't rip it off.

If you really want to know (TMI), these surging emotions are partly caused from that time of the month. I usually get annoyed and angry and depressed easier than usual. As for the shocked feeling, I'd rather not discuss it here. It's not so much as what happened to me as what I somewhat found out. But I still did have a lot of things happen today though.

As for my depression episode from earlier, it didn't exactly go away, but it definitely improved. It's been up and down all day. I just want the feeling to go away altogether.

Would you rather I did?

Well, there's little I can do about "that" without changing your gender. Would you like to switch sides::? But, seriously, if it's something that you don't want to discuss here, then I can only imagine how shocking it is. Well, is it something that will affect you for the rest of your life? If it isn't, then could you settle it?

I'm happy that your depression episode is over at least. But, just reading that made me want to hug you and tell you it will be alright. But I can't, so I'll settle with this: *hugs as hard as I can*

 

[Phoenixx]

Would you rather I did?

Well, there's little I can do about "that" without changing your gender. Would you like to switch sides::? But, seriously, if it's something that you don't want to discuss here, then I can only imagine how shocking it is. Well, is it something that will affect you for the rest of your life? If it isn't, then could you settle it?

I'm happy that your depression episode is over at least. But, just reading that made me want to hug you and tell you it will be alright. But I can't, so I'll settle with this: *hugs as hard as I can*

^ No, that is perfectly alright. *wince*

Would I like to switch sides? For a day, why not? Honestly I'd take up the chance if it was actually possible. Only for a day though. I'm not sure if I could handle more than that. :: Plus, if you switch just in time for that time of the month, you can experience the true feelings of being a woman! Oh what joy!

Joking aside, what happened most likely won't affect the rest of my life, but I don't know if I can settle it or not. :/ I suppose I'll just need to find a way to just deal with it, whether I like it or not.

I'm actually in need of that hug right now. Thank you.