How are you feeling?

My sister's and dad's birthdays are this week and I'm going to cook something for each of them. I'm nervous, but kind of excited, too. I think I've become a better cook during the past couple of months.

My therapist appointment went well yesterday. It was the first time that I left more confused than when I came in, but I think I've figured it all out. When we were talking about my proclivity for avoiding confrontation and, really, any kind of social interaction, she said to me, "You don't like stuff." I don't think anyone has ever said something about me that is more fitting. :) I see the psychologist tomorrow. I'm super nervous for that.
 
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WeirdyMcGee

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poop, poop, poop.
new therapist 'forgot' to come again today... being in suspense all the time 'is she going to come? yes? no?' - 'what is she like? I have to meet her for the first time... what if she hates me? what if she doesn't give a ****? oh well... ahh...'
horrible.
 
sad somebody in my family got diagnosed with the supposedly rare and non-hereditory 1 in 4 million cancer I lost my mom to. I'm utterly devastated.
 
Thanks Gazelle,

It's just such a cruel killer isn't it. I'm sorry bout your mom too and that's a hard age to lose her. I'm gonna give myself the weekend maybe next week to let the shock sink in. Then I'll go and talk to the doctors about getting tested. It's upsetting because after my mom died I asked about testing and they said not necessary, it's so rare, we've never even seen it before, your mom was the first case we treated and the odds of it happening in the same family twice are incalculable. Now we're waiting to find out, not if it's there but how far it's spread. And to think this all could have been avoided.
 

Phoenixx

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Had a good day today, got my puppy! And the cat while not comfortable has handled it a lot better than I thought. She's hiding right now, but she came and had a sniff while the puppy was sleeping, which I wasn't expecting on day one.

Need to get his vaccinations sorted out asap, and I also need to come up with a new name, his original owners called him rocky and it doesn't suit him.
^ Aw, cute!! We need to see pics! :D
 

Danfalc

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^ Aw, cute!! We need to see pics! :D

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Here he is, ripping up paper all over the place :D
 
Like I will die by my own hand. I don't know when, could be six months from now, could be six years, but I think it's going to happen. Just a feeling I have.

I had that same belief in 1990.
But I am still here.

I am now is a situation where I can't die by my own hands.
As John Lennon said "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans"

I don't know if you want what you fear to happen or not. But if you DON'T want it to happen, don't worry too much, take it from someone who had the same thoughts you have many years ago, life does not always happen the way you think it will.:)
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

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Like I will die by my own hand. I don't know when, could be six months from now, could be six years, but I think it's going to happen. Just a feeling I have.

Sorry you are feeling miserable, Beat, but I don't feel that you will... I think 6 months from now can by lightyears apart from today. If you just hold onto a small seed of belief that things WILL be better and are open to action, even microscopic of that hope, even if you lose place of it, it'll remain and can sprout when you least expect it to. Life is never one way forever. I know, you'll get there... :)
 

coyote

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Like I will die by my own hand. I don't know when, could be six months from now, could be six years, but I think it's going to happen. Just a feeling I have.

back in the early 1980's, i was convinced i would die in the impending nuclear holocaust

never thought i'd live to see 47

and yet, here i am

crystal balls tend to be inaccurate
 

sprode

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Like I will die by my own hand. I don't know when, could be six months from now, could be six years, but I think it's going to happen. Just a feeling I have.

I was always under the impression that somehow I'd die by 20. Still here, unfortunately. I thought some weird thoughts though. I wish I still had that creativity.

Sigh. What is the point of going on like this?
 
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