How are you feeling?

[Phoenixx]

More Skype? Or RL? Well regardless, just takes... "practice" or experience. More you do, more get to know person too less these things will factor in; nerves still be there but that's sorta good, means you care =) When it interferes to the extent it hurts and stops you from doing things or not doing WHAT you want then it becomes as you said...

But you're doing well methinksyes.

^ No, not Skype. Just RL. I was at my college all day today, sorting things out for the fall. I'm not used to talking so much to so many people on my own. It sounds pathetic, but most of my life my mom has asked questions and talked to people for me. Lately she's been putting me in the position. I don't blame her, I need it. It's just really hard, is all. I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope. My mom thinks I'll be fine, I think otherwise. I'm just preparing for the worst. And I feel pathetic that I can't even speak up for myself. :/

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

^ No, not Skype. Just RL. I was at my college all day today, sorting things out for the fall. I'm not used to talking so much to so many people on my own. It sounds pathetic, but most of my life my mom has asked questions and talked to people for me. Lately she's been putting me in the position. I don't blame her, I need it. It's just really hard, is all. I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope. My mom thinks I'll be fine, I think otherwise. I'm just preparing for the worst. And I feel pathetic that I can't even speak up for myself. :/

I can relate! It took me a while... being at university on own be best thing. But mom knows best because she IS right, you will be fine. It's just like any endurance social and talking DOES require endurance. You'll build it up. It'll be scary and exciting at the same time! Gonna do really well! Just let it happen.

 

[Pyrophosphate]

^ No, not Skype. Just RL. I was at my college all day today, sorting things out for the fall. I'm not used to talking so much to so many people on my own. It sounds pathetic, but most of my life my mom has asked questions and talked to people for me. Lately she's been putting me in the position. I don't blame her, I need it. It's just really hard, is all. I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope. My mom thinks I'll be fine, I think otherwise. I'm just preparing for the worst. And I feel pathetic that I can't even speak up for myself. :/

I felt that way about a year ago, too. You'll probably be fine. I found college to be a lot easier than high school, after I got over all the initial anxiety and uncertainty you're going through now.

 

[Phoenixx]

I can relate! It took me a while... being at university on own be best thing. But mom knows best because she IS right, you will be fine. It's just like any endurance social and talking DOES require endurance. You'll build it up. It'll be scary and exciting at the same time! Gonna do really well! Just let it happen.

^ Yeah, it's not like I don't want to go. I mean, I've only been waiting for this since I was 13 (I was so ready to move out by then ). And a part of me is pretty excited, but it doesn't override the 'absolutely terrified' feeling.

But anyway, *fingers crossed*

 

[pingu07]

i feel stupid and alot of other things..

 

[BlueDays]

Terrible. My panic attacks have started again. I didn't have one for months, and now they're back.

Sorry to hear that MidnightStar::
Do you know what has caused them to come back? Is it something that can be worked on or fixed?

 

[Sial Axetder]

Go nuts

 

[twiggle]

I'm feeling same old same old. I wish I could be one of those people who doesn't get really upset and neurotic about things, and who can just be like, "well if they're gonna be like that, screw 'em". I just can't be like that even though I want to be sometimes.
I long for the day I can look back at this phase and see it as something that happened in the past, and made me stronger. I believe that day will come, but as the weeks pass by, that belief wilts somewhat.

 

[BlueDays]

I'm feeling same old same old. I wish I could be one of those people who doesn't get really upset and neurotic about things, and who can just be like, "well if they're gonna be like that, screw 'em". I just can't be like that even though I want to be sometimes.
I long for the day I can look back at this phase and see it as something that happened in the past, and made me stronger. I believe that day will come, but as the weeks pass by, that belief wilts somewhat.

Hang in there twiggle You seem confident that that day will eventually come, so try to hold onto that confidence that it is possible.
I wish I could not let people/things upset me so much too, I know what you mean twiggle.

 

[twiggle]

Hang in there twiggle You seem confident that that day will eventually come, so try to hold onto that confidence that it is possible.
I wish I could not let people/things upset me so much too, I know what you mean twiggle.

Thank you BlueDays I will try hehe, believing in the end of it is all I can do

 

[Kathryn.fr]

Horrible, horrible day. I saw my bf for about 20-30 minutes. Thought I'd be okay the rest of the night, I came home door was locked and I knocked loud enough, my roommate could hear back in her room and the other in the living room was stoned with her... idk what she is. gf, and didn't even get up to let me in. I walk to the back door and come in, hands full of food I got. Set it down to shut the screen and got yelled at for not shutting it, but it was already open. So I had to step OVER everyones legs to go shut it, and try to lock it, and she tells me i don't have to. But I get yelled at if I leave the fron't door unlocked. -.- So I try stepping BACK over their knees (small walk way/mess) and none of them even bother to think I'm having problems walking around them, I bump the gf's knee, turns out she has chronic leg pains and has been walking all day, supposed to be in a wheelchair mostly(why the f*** isn't she using one?)she starts grabbing her leg like Peter did in Family Guy when he trips and the roomy yells at me for not being careful. I didn't know she was freakin crippled. Didn't even act like it earlier. I sit down and the other roomy yells at me for sitting in her spot. All I wanted to do was eat my Chinese... went and hid in the bathtub for 2 1/2 hours. Ended up crying and cut myself, stupid. Feel a bit better now after calling the bf, no one even cared to check on me til they noticed I wasn't making any noises in the bathroom.

 

[BlueDays]

Horrible, horrible day. I saw my bf for about 20-30 minutes. Thought I'd be okay the rest of the night, I came home door was locked and I knocked loud enough, my roommate could hear back in her room and the other in the living room was stoned with her... idk what she is. gf, and didn't even get up to let me in. I walk to the back door and come in, hands full of food I got. Set it down to shut the screen and got yelled at for not shutting it, but it was already open. So I had to step OVER everyones legs to go shut it, and try to lock it, and she tells me i don't have to. But I get yelled at if I leave the fron't door unlocked. -.- So I try stepping BACK over their knees (small walk way/mess) and none of them even bother to think I'm having problems walking around them, I bump the gf's knee, turns out she has chronic leg pains and has been walking all day, supposed to be in a wheelchair mostly(why the f*** isn't she using one?)she starts grabbing her leg like Peter did in Family Guy when he trips and the roomy yells at me for not being careful. I didn't know she was freakin crippled. Didn't even act like it earlier. I sit down and the other roomy yells at me for sitting in her spot. All I wanted to do was eat my Chinese... went and hid in the bathtub for 2 1/2 hours. Ended up crying and cut myself, stupid. Feel a bit better now after calling the bf, no one even cared to check on me til they noticed I wasn't making any noises in the bathroom.

Are these inconsiderate people the same ones that told you they are moving out soon? Have you found a new place to live yet kathryn?

 

[gazelle]

i feel stupid and alot of other things..

By reading your posts I'm sure that you aren't!

I'm feeling same old same old. I wish I could be one of those people who doesn't get really upset and neurotic about things, and who can just be like, "well if they're gonna be like that, screw 'em". I just can't be like that even though I want to be sometimes.
I long for the day I can look back at this phase and see it as something that happened in the past, and made me stronger. I believe that day will come, but as the weeks pass by, that belief wilts somewhat.

I know what you mean! Some ppl seem to be poisonous .I think you're better off eliminating these negative ppl from your life than keeping them as decorative friends .Screw them! Don't let them poison your day again!

 

[Danfalc]

Had a good day today, got my puppy! And the cat while not comfortable has handled it a lot better than I thought. She's hiding right now, but she came and had a sniff while the puppy was sleeping, which I wasn't expecting on day one.

Need to get his vaccinations sorted out asap, and I also need to come up with a new name, his original owners called him rocky and it doesn't suit him.

 

[Srijita52]

Had a good day today, got my puppy! And the cat while not comfortable has handled it a lot better than I thought. She's hiding right now, but she came and had a sniff while the puppy was sleeping, which I wasn't expecting on day one.

Need to get his vaccinations sorted out asap, and I also need to come up with a new name, his original owners called him rocky and it doesn't suit him.

Awww that's cute!your cat seems really friendly & brave.

 

[Srijita52]

Sleepy.......

 

[black_widow]

crap i feel so gutted to be alive at this time in the world.

why couldnt i have been alive in the 1800s or something ,life expectancy was less , no internet to mess with your mind, it was just pure and raw .

 

[Beatrice]

Notgoodnotgoodnotgoodnotgood.

Feeling very down and self-conscious again. Ughhhhhh. I'm so tired of life I really really am but what can I do?

 

[Danfalc]

Awww that's cute!your cat seems really friendly & brave.

Thanks, and yeah she is a brave kitty Im going to get some saftey gates tomorrow so she can have a few rooms to herself and I think that will help even more

Not sure about her being friendly though, she actively stalks me and my mates, and will do a cat version of a drive by, by running past me and biting me when she thinks I'm not looking

 

[Lea]

Had a good day today, got my puppy! And the cat while not comfortable has handled it a lot better than I thought. She's hiding right now, but she came and had a sniff while the puppy was sleeping, which I wasn't expecting on day one.

Need to get his vaccinations sorted out asap, and I also need to come up with a new name, his original owners called him rocky and it doesn't suit him.

Congratulations!