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Beatrice

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I don't knowwwwwww. I just know it isn't a good feeling.

I'm so bored with my life, and it's so monotonous and lonely that I just have no energy anymore! I feel worthless, everything feels pointless.

I don't even want to try to make it better because I don't feel it will be worth the effort to try to build something that can be toppled down, and I don't feel I deserve it, I guess. I don't know why. I just feel like a worthless freak.
 
dottie

dottie

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irrelevant rant ahead for sake of venting. ignore.

PISSED. this world is ass-backwards. NO LOGIC. ANYWHERE. NO COMMON SENSE. everything is an effin beaurocratic clusterf#ck that gets you no where. little man, bend over. and do it with a smile.

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D:<
 
MollyBeGood

MollyBeGood

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LoL at the word clusterf#uck and I thought I was special when I used that one!;)

though we use in in reference to a different thing here haha


amen
 
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AGR

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MrJones said:
What an ******* :mad:
But if he uses your image without permission you should sue him (I don't know your country's laws, but you can check it out :D)
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Beatrice said:
Oh my god! He comments on your weight??? How rude!
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Oh no,I think you guys got it wrong,or maybe I didnt explain well sorry,he jokes in a playfull way,it doesnt hurt me,what I am worried about is my pic on the blog,so far he didnt post it,its a boxing gym,so yes he does,weight in a boxing gym is probably much worse than in some places on the modeling industry,its serious stuff :D
 
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Foxie913

Foxie913

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I've been feeling off for the last four days because I have a head cold.
My head feels a bit stuffy and my sinuses are gluggy.
I haven't gotten sick for over five years and I only go out once a week so I have no idea how I caught the cold. Well at least it's only a minor one.
 
Bloir

Bloir

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I am feeling active and will study all the day. I was stuying English, trying to find the words in a beautiful song, i made mistakes but i consider it is perfect to learn
 
Honda

Honda

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I work 6 days a week... Day 1 feels like s3%@^@$Y@.... Especially when you didnt have enough sleep the night before...

I feel like killing myself soon... Plus I go boxing training in the evening & I hate it when I skip it cuz im too tired of work...
 
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Beatrice

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I really need to get on finding a counselor specifically for BDD. I'm hating myself more and more. I don't know how people can reassure me my "flaw" is "fine" or normal or whatever.... it looks awful to me. Maybe not monstrous, but certainly far from attractive or normal. It just doesn't look right.... I feel like a freak.
 
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dyingtolive

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^ i feel ya beat. have u ever tried searching celebrities who have the same characteristics/features ur talking about?

it sorta helped when i found people i looked up to that had the same features as me and saw that they were successful and looked good and it sorta made me feel better
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Stressed out, exhausted, and pissed off. I just want some time to myself to relax, instead of feeling this constant pressure to socially interact when I just don't feel up to it.
 
Deus_Ex_Lemur

Deus_Ex_Lemur

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Paahi said:
I am happy. I have found my direction in life.
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Hooray! Godspeed.

I have found my 1000th post! :D

VJ/Beat - I feel "worthless" now - monotonous, lonely, monotonous, unsure - but that won't be there forever. Treat each day like a new life - I can't do that yet, but it's a good mindset to think about at least. Nothing remains in a straight line, so neither will such feelings and lifestyle. Esp if you make a concerted effort =D

And Beat, you should get on finding a BDD counselor. Nobody can reassure anyone when BDD is at it's worst. I can just say nobody's staring at your fingers in all the vids/photos you've posted =) It's not freakish, could be worse, but I won't patronize, I have the same issue with my ears - which, are a lot more noticeable, being ears and on the head. (but then I'm also competitive =D

Danfalc said:
::(:

For what it's worth you do have people who care about you.
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Ditto.
 
dottie

dottie

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Why is my text being auto-reformatted? I am typing this in all caps but when it is posted to the forum it is auto-reformatted. Effing commies.

(that should read in all-caps and bold but i am being censored)

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edit: So my original text will auto-reformat to undercase but not my edits? So weird.

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edit: this sentence has no capitol letters when i type it. but will it have capitol letters when it is posted? testing 123jklmnop.
 
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Beatrice

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dottie said:
Why is my text being auto-reformatted? I am typing this in all caps but when it is posted to the forum it is auto-reformatted. Effing commies.

(that should read in all-caps and bold but i am being censored)

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edit: So my original text will auto-reformat to undercase but not my edits? So weird.

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Dottie you crack me up XD Haha sorry, not laughing at your frustration, just your method of expressing it :D

Thanks dyingtolive and Lemur. I'll work on getting help. I have a pessimistic outlook on it, like it won't be much help at all. I know I shouldn't, but I do.
 
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Beatrice

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Feeling better about my body. Don't know why, just spent some time in the mirror with some music on trying to admire what I liked about myself. It seems to have worked for a little while :) I'm going to enjoy the peace while I can! And now, to Wal-Mart! :)
 
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