I have a family meal out later on with my dads side of the family, they're all loud, confident people. I don't fit in at all.

i'm not looking forward to it plus i have a huge headache still after 5 days! What's even worse is that this meal is for
me - a late 18th birthday meal. I appreciate them doing this for me, but dude ... i hate being centre of attention. :

: A couple of hours of fake smiling, laughing and full of anxiety is gonna zap all my energy up. Lovely hehe.
Oh yeah, i haven't been taking my anti depressants for over a week - if i say anything real depressing like i did last night please ignore it, just this medicatedless head of mine talking. I'm gonna start taking them again next week when i can get another presciption.